fish and its bones

i went back to Johor yesterday and just came back today. i had only been in my hometown for less than 24 hours. what the...[-.-''']

anyway, it was the first time i went back with my brother ONLY. well, the journey was quite pleasant. as per usual, my brother would jam songs throughout the whole journey. nothing was more interesting than seeing him performed stunts i.e. overtook all the car that slowed him down. i only realised that Honda City has a function called '7 speed mode' yesterday. was i a jakun? anyway...i had a few conversation with my brother. it felt odd because my brother wasn't a person that would initiate conversation with us, his family, especially when he grew older. there was a moment where he asked me something and i felt embarrassed.

bro: when are you graduating?
me: may, next year lo
bro: as what? master ar?
me: *surprised* no lah! degree nia
bro: how's results? first class?
me: *embarrassed* no la, second upper nia

i was a straight A students all the while, except for SPM. i realised that i was fading away, especially in studies lately. didn't manage to score well, didn't have any motivation to study. so pathetic!

anyway, i still have another one semester left. i tell myself, i will play hard and study hard. after all, this is the last 5 months to be an undergrad. haha. looking back at 2008, i realise that time flies supersonically. pheww...

as per usual, i tapao bento that my mom made for me. my mom usually prepares me bento when i go back to KL. this time, i had egg and fish, what a healthy meal! when i was eating the fish, i thought of my dad. my dad would always remove bone from the flesh of the fish whenever my mom cooked fish at home. we i.e. my siblings and i would eat the boneless flesh of the fish while my dad busied himself extracting the bones. by the time we had done eating, to leave the table, my dad only ate one bite of rice from his rice bowl. i miss those days...my mom also extracted bones from the fish these days, for me, ONLY. (ps: to my siblings, she would act as if: jaga yourself lar)*hehe* but the feeling was not the same. i really miss my dad but i do love my mom too. sigh, just miss those day when my dad was still around. he was a very cool and quiet person, but somehow, his presence gave me a reason to stay at home, and feel the warmth of a happy and complete family.

my heart would go sad whenever i see any uncles wondering aimlessly on the streets or families going outing with their DADs. i am jealous. although everyone in the family grows stronger and tougher, i still feel the lost that cannot be replaced. this year will be the second year to celebrate CNY without my dad. every year, my dad would grill bak gua for us, at his friend's shop. we would eat as much as we could. i tell you, the bak gua he grilled was the best in the world. he was very skilful in grilling bak gua back then. the bak gua was perfectly grilled yet not charred. ever since he passed away, i have been eating less bak gua and chocolate. he had been feeding us with chocolate since we were young and we ended up loving chocolate so much!

i still miss my dad, i still hope that he can be here, to celebrate CNY with us. i still want to celebrate even a small bliss in everyday of my life with my precious daddy...
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Kek sei!!!!

today is supposed to be a merry and happy day coz it's Christmas, the day where Jesus Christ was born. i went to church for morning service and went back after lunch. received a few presents =)

everything went well for the whole day until when i was on my way back. i encountered a few stupid drivers who couldn't drive well on the road.

#1 Old Honda
there was this malay uncle driving an old, brown-coloured honda. the uncle was very revengeful. the uncle was trying to change to the inner lane as the most left outer lane was going to end after about 50 m. i (red-coloured car) was in front and more to the inner lane compare to the old Honda. thus, it's logical for me to change to the inner lane first. BTW, i was going at a higher speed as well, so, it's also logical for me to change to the inner lane first. suddenly, this old uncle gave me a loud and long honk. i was like, what the fart! what's wrong with this old uncle. he memang tak syiok me for i get to change to the inner lane before him. so, yeah, he honked me. bloody fool!

so, ok. i got to change to the inner lane first. since i was at the inner lane, it's normal to speed off, in order to avoid slowing down others oncoming cars. i would occasionally look at the rear mirror, to see the cars behind. i noticed that i had sped off quite fast and left the old Honda behind, about 50 to 100 m away from my car. this old Honda memang tak syiok me, he sped on and got closer to my car.

by that time, he was on the inner lane. he memang tak syiok me, i tell you. suddenly, out of my surprise, he...
he tried to startled me by suddenly drove onto my lane. his car and mine were a about a few inches away. WHAT THE FART! i was driving peacefully on my lane and he purposely sped on just to startle me. what more, i immediately avoid his car by turning slightly to the left side but still remain on the same lane.


luckily, there was no car behind! and the stupid old uncle sped on and got in front of me and on the same lane as me! WHAT THE STUPID FART!
after he got in front of my car, he stepped on his brake and reduced his speed to about 40 km/hr. i was at that time at about 80 km/hr. what more, i nearly hit him and i immediately stepped on my brake.

realizing the situation, i immediately gave him a long and loud honk for 2 times. i was so angry. i was furious, to be exact. i couldn't remember whether i cursed him. without hesitating, i changed to the inner lane and sped off to leave his car behind. then, he suddenly slow down and made a turn on the left. i was like, what that fart was wrong with this old uncle.

ps: actually, i wanted to use 'hag' to call this uncle, but 'hag' is only used for evil-looking old woman. if anyone knows any words i can use to describe him in a nasty way, please leave me a comment. i'm serious!

#2 Nissan
when i was in Kajang town and on the way back to my house in fasa 3, i encountered another car, a stupid one. it was a green-coloured Nissan. he was slow and was scared to make any move. i was behind his car. he remained stationary for a few moments despite there were a few chances that he could take to move on. FYI, Kajang is kinda jam most of the time. i was furious and still terkejut because of the old Honda just now. man! this Nissan really got me on my nerves! he kept making me to step on my brake for a few times because he was reluctant or too timid to make a move. sigh!

#3 Kenari
towards approaching fasa 4, there was another car, a silver-coloured Kelisa. this time, it was a reckless car.
because the most left outer lane was going to end soon, so this Kelisa changed to the right inner lane. it was logical to do that also lar. i didn't blame the Kelisa. i was that time driving at 80 km/hr. after the Kelisa managed to change to the inner lane and got in front of me, the driver didn't speed on and drove at 30 km/hr. i was like, what the fart, i made an emergency brake and all the thing dropped off from the passenger seat. i gave that car a honk. BTW, the Kelisa didn't give any signal to move to the right when it was going to change to the inner lane but i knew what it was going to do at that time.

sigh! i wonder how people drive nowadays.
similarity in these 3 cases:

1. they were uncles
2. they were malays
3. they were reckless
4. they were stupid

i decided to stay at home for the whole day. i knew, it wasn't a good day for me =(
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Christmas present on MSN

my friend, kit how, sent me this drawing. he drew it on MSN
so colourful and pretty
Sammy is happy =)

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results!

result for last semester is finally out!

i was terrified before this. i did badly in Chemical Process Safety subject. i even dream that i was going to fail that subject. but thank God! prayers really work eh! =) banzai to the Lord!

my latest result is better than the previous one. i am very happy about it. i'm still very happy =)
my result is quite average if compare to others, but i am satisfied. after all, i'm competing with myself, not others. who cares if others got a lot better than me. but i wish them well and a lot of congrats to them as well.

i cried profusely the moment i saw my result on the computer screen. i couldn't believe my eyes. i just hoped not to fail any subjects but my hope not only came true. my result was better than what i've expected. my tears were tears of joy. joy that couldn't be described using any words ever existed in this world. not even Jane Austen could describe my feelings.

ps: is this the defining moments i have mentioned in the previous post? still waiting...

ah...i feel so relieved. it gives me more motivation to do better next semester, which is the 8th semester, my last semester as a lame and lauya Chemical Engineering undergrad. am doing my thesis and i hope to finish it as soon as possible. will be doing viscosity test tomorrow. i just hope that KGM will have similar characteristics as gelatin.

one more day to Christmas. yay!

"We wish you a Merry Christmas
We wish you a Merry Christmas
We wish you a Merry Christmas
And a happy new year"

Snoopy wants to have a Merry Christmas, so is Sammy =)

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Jesus said~~~

...a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.

adapted from Luke 12:15
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you've got to watch this!

check this out! this guy is super slut and funny
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2008

i wonder, what has the police been doing all these time? yesterday, after i went yum cha with seen, i saw a bunch of mat rempit gangstering the street. not just a bunch. almost 3 to 4 groups of mat rempit on different streets. i was so scared but luckily, i was safe. luckily there were a few other cars on the road. i almost pee in my pants and i kept on uttering words of prayer to God. luckily, i had to turn into roads with a lot of bumps to get back home. logically and philosophically thinking, mat rempit would avoid bumpy and slopy roads as these roads couldn't give them the oomph to rempit on. i always hated bumps but for once in my life, i actually loved bumps.

recently, my friend also encountered mat rempit on her way back home where a bunch of mat rempit surrounded her car. her experience was more terrifying than mine. she quickly drove to the nearest police station and asked for help from the police. she told me the whole scenario where mat rempit followed her car, in front, left, right and behind her car. the police told her that, normally, there would be no mat rempit on weekdays and they couldn't escort or put up road blocks on the streets, for further actions. what the fart! what's wrong with the police? i thought one of their responsibilities was to protect us. it is because of their couldn't-be-bothered-attitude that makes those mat rempit getting more and more outrageous. i know, polices are also humans and they have their own family to take care of. but they had made their vow, to take up the responsibility, to be dedicated, to try their best to be what a police should be/do.

i'm soooo speechless. sigh. double sigh. triple sigh. enough with the police. eventually, it would end up with lots of disappointments when it comes to them.

christmas is coming soon, very soon. every year, i would spend my christmas in my hometown. but this is the first time i'll be spending christmas in KL. have some plans in hands but we'll see. hope i can have a nice and enjoyable christmas this year.

this year almost comes to the end and i realise that 2008 is such a short year for me. haven't really done much. haven't really experienced much. i couldn't even recall what has happened throughout the year. but deep inside my heart, i know that, family is the most important of all. i found a few close friends that i can trust and share problems with. i had done my internship and experienced what it was like to work in the society. i became more matured and thought deeply most of the time. i lost my car. i experienced the most bias situation that a person could experience. i saw how a person could be so fake and yet it was the most natural side of that person that was hidden deep in that person's heart.

2008 is plain yet intriguing. i feel that something big is going to happen in my life. the most determining, the most anticipated moment in my life is going to happen soon. i don't know what is it but i know i want it very much. weird la...haha.
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L. D. Stamp said~~~

those that survive are stalwart, rugged men

cut cut cut

The economy is getting worse each day. By the time i grad, i think the economy will be even worse. i should have taken a 3-year-course and grad by this year. if i were to take a 3-year-course, i would have secured myself a good job now. why on earth i go and study chemical engineering, stupid me. i still can complain even i'm on the edge of completing the course, stupid me. ok, enough with the complaining.

since the prices of all good hike up, and my income, which is ptptn loan given to me each semester still remain the same, i really need to cut down on my expenses. luckily the petrol price is slurping down, i mean decreasing, it's a big help of hand in this period of economy downturn *4 thumbs up (including the 2 on my feet)*
i have thought of some useful ways to cut down on everything i can cut down.

1. cut down on my food.
my main food will be oat and wholemeal bread from now on. goodbye to rice. don't pity me, i like eating oat and wholemeal bread. plus, the rice i can get here is white rice. my mom has cultivated healthy lifestyle for quite some time. the whole family has been eating brown rice and i'm not so into white rice anymore. so, take the advantage from this economy downturn and cultivate healthy lifestyle so that you can live a longer life. ps: live long enough to meet another economy downturn :D

2. cut down on toiletries.
normally the amount of shampoo i use is about the size of a 20 cents. now i cut it down to 10 cents. while the amount of body shampoo i use is about the size of a 50 cents(X2). now i cut it down to 50 cents(X1). cut down on toothpaste from the length of the brush to half the length of the brush. turn off water pipe while soaping.

3. cut down on electricity.
put lappie on standby mode when i go to bath or to store, if i don't wana shut it down. turn off fan and light when i'm not using it.

4. cut down on petrol.
i try to avoid travelling unnecessarily. stay at home and read books better la. my wallet will go thin whenever i step out of the house. sigh...i'm a very broke student.

i want to clarify something. i'm saving not being stingy :D
enough with the cutting down, or else, i will end up cutting myself into half.
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离别是为了走更远的路

hey guys.
sorry for not updating for such a long time. i went back to my hometown where internet was less accessible. but now i'm back and i'm back for more action. waaachaaaaa!!!
now, i have a record of driving alone for almost 400 km, muahahhaha. now, who say girls are lousy drivers?

people always say: 休息是为了走更远的路
but i say: 离别是为了走更远的路
it was kinda sad to be away from my mom after about a month at home.
but i have to continue my life, to pursue and put a full stop (as perfect as possible) to end my studies. although i will be sad for quite some time, it's worth it.
i will be graduating in less than 6 months from now. i always thought i wanted this very much but i'm not exactly that happy right now. thinking of having to work on weekdays for the whole year makes me sick. anyway, it can't be that bad right? i believe God has a good plan for everyone.

will go to fac tomorrow to really start doing lab for my thesis. been wasting a lot of time doing nothing for my thesis. i heard that some even go back to fac on weekends to do their lab. walao, so hardworking. shame on me for being so lazy.

finally, i had finished reading a novel, 'pride and prejudice' after a few attempts to read it since last year, if i'm not mistaken. the novel was great and not disappointing at all. my last fiction book was the one written by John Grisham.

tomorrow will be a long day. need to try-and-error on using the viscosity tester. hope i can master all the knowledge by myself within a day. good luck to me. wanna watch my fave anime, bleach before continue reading some journals. later...

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just for fun

can you see what is it on the pic above??
cannot right?
now close you eyes 90% (how to know if your eyes are 90% close? you will know when you can read the words) and you will be able to see it.
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answer for dementia test

1. you are at second place
2. you cannot overtake last person
3. 4100
4. Mary
5. he just has to open his mouth and ask, he's not mute
   

test for dementia

to all viewer, please answer the question below and put your answer in the comment box, i will reveal the answer in the next post.

1. You are participating in a race. You overtake the second place person. What position are you in?
2. If you are in a race, and you overtake the last person, then you are?
3. (Do not use calculator)Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30. Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000. Now add 10. What is the total?
4. Mary's father has five daughters. Nana, Nene, Nini, Nono. What is the name of the fifth daughter?
5. There is a mute person who wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing one's teeth he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done. Now if there's a blind man who wishes to buy a pair of sunglasses, how should he express himself?

Have fun trying those questions

adapted from an e-mail
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care

i care because i love

some people don't bother that i care
some people don't even care that i bother
so, why do i care to bother?
why do i bother to care?

maybe i should not care at all
maybe i should not love at all

yeah, i should stop caring
and stop loving at all

you always have hope in people
the more you hope, the more disappointed you will get
because people = disappointment
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annoyed

i feel very annoyed today. most probably because people around me are doing something that i detest and 'detonate' the bomb inside of me. i am a creature of 'high flammability' and get angry mad easily.

1. i hate people not replying my messages, be it smses or messages in msn. to me, not replying messages is not being responsible for your own act and not respecting the person sending you the messages.
2. i hate people delay in giving me answer when i inquire. just say NO or YES if you don't want/not willing or want/willing. there's nothing wrong in being frank. being frank is better than procrastinating.
   
3. i hate people accusing me for nothing. something that i didn't do, please do not simply say it out and point your accusing fingers towards me.
4. i hate people who get advantages from me or use me for their own happiness or benefits.
   
5. i can handle the truth. if i did something wrong or terstep your tail, tell me straight, face to face. so please DO NOT defame me in front of others to take revenge on me.
6. i hate it when people make me wait. my limit is half an hour, more than that, you will see me with a tak syiok face.
7. unless some urgent or important matters, i hate people breaking promises.

being a friend, the most basic thing is to know your friend's dislikes and likes. putting effort to understand your friend shows how much you cherish the friendship and the relationship between both of you. putting effort to understand your friend is the most fundamental thing on your friendship-to-do-list to maintain your friendship with others.

you can say that i'm very demanding but this is me. yeah yeah, i'm no miss good, i'm a bad person...who cares

still feel annoyed and sibeh tak syiok. i lost the mood to blog...later
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guys...speechless

you guys must be kidding me...
seriously, are guys THAT blind nowadays??!!

potato omelette

I LOVE potato and egg.

so, i created this recipe and i named it potato omelette.


ingredients:
1 potato(medium size)
2 eggs
oil
black pepper
green onion (optional)
salt

steps:

1. steamed the potato until it's fully cooked
2. mash the potato until it become pulp in a big bowl
3. beat the eggs together with the potato in the bowl
4. add in a pinch of salt, pepper, green onion to the mixture
5. cook the egg until it is golden-brownish on a fry pan or wok

my advices:

1. make sure the egg is in sufficient amount to cover all the potato, or else, the whole thing won't be able to solidify and you will end up making sramble egg.
2. hmm...i don't suggest you to put green onion coz it'll cover the taste of potato but my mom was cooking with me and she thought it needed green onion...
3. black pepper is a must! black pepper will bring the omelette to a whole new level of taste.

enjoy the potato omelette...=D

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crap

Last paper today.
will blog tonight...
holiday starts after 6pm
weee.....
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stewpid people....speechless

Received an e-mail that cursed people AGAIN!


it's something like,

" forward this e-mail within 13 minutes, or else, how many people will die within 20 days.

those who forward this e-mail will win lottery

this is something sacred, follow the instructions and forward it out"


DUH!!! As if i would send it to curse my friends.

Please la people out there. don't be so stupid and naive. so cold-blooded, save yourself by cursing others.

SAMMY HATES THESE KIND OF FRIENDS. BACK-OFF!!

ps: if i receive this type of e-mail again, his/her name will be blocked and i will blog him/her kao kao, in a harsh and nasty way!
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bloggers rock!

don't have the mood to study, so, here i am, blogging...

something terrible happened during class just now. em...it's not terrible lar, just a kid, too rich and had nothing to do, cari pasal.

i don't know whether or not i should blog about this. anyhow, just a flash back on what happened.

there were this X and Z. Z blogged something about X, something nasty but i believed it's true. then X hired a lawyer to called Z and demanded Z to do something about the blog. Z didn't even write X's name in the blog but the description about X, well, everyone in the class knew it was about X. so, Z decided to apologise publicly to X.
Z apologised because Z didn't want the matter to get worse and bring it to court. most important of all, Z didn't want to involve her family with something as small as a post in a blog.
ok, so, fine, Z was very courageous and worthy of our supports. more than half of the class supported Z, including me.
i kinda salute Z for her deeds.

1. she admitted what she did and bravely apologised for it. (which i think she is not wrong at all)
2. she was matured and did what an adult should do, unlike X, haih...so mou liu
3. she knew how to protect herself and her family
4. she's a peacemaker (so yeng!)

some might think that she's not defending herself well enough. BUT i think, sometimes, the best form of defense is not defensing herself at all.

frankly speaking, i HATE those who stirred up the freedom of blogging. hey, in this world, especially malaysia, although it's a so-called democratic country, it isn't THAT democratic at all. try being a lil more outspoken, you'll end up in, who knows where. so, blog is the best way to express opinions freely, in my humble opinion lar.

i wana make a petition here:

Please leave bloggers alone.
Let bloggers have the freedom of speech.
Let bloggers blog whatever they want to.
Overrule all the act and law that restricts bloggers to have freedom of speech.

Dear Patt,

I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER!!!

what?!

for those who watch bleach,

oh my gosh!

Nel is former Espada No. 3

wow wow wow!!!

can you imagine

is actually

faint faint faint

ps: biggest shock i got from Bleach, so far!

at random

final exam is just around the corner.i'm totally moodless to study now. sigh. this is the worst thing i expect to happen and now it's happening, 24 hours per day. man, i just hope i can concentrate in my studies. how i hope all the fact can jump into my mind without me exerting any forces on them when i just plain staring at the notes. yeah, i only have 2 papers for this final but i cannot use it as an excuse to delay doing my revision.

the weather is super hot and this increases my moodless mood to study. sigh. even gulping a dozen of 100Plus cannot alleviate the heat i'm suffering from now.

putting those saddening stuffs aside, i'm getting my car next week! YAY!!! i know, you are happy for me too right..hehe^^.

last monday, Gary called me, he told me that his car got stolen the other day. he asked me what to do next. gosh, what has happened to our country? car thefts happen everywhere. what are the polices doing out there? just nab all the car theft syndicates and put those asses behind bars already. do they even know how it feels when your 'baby' got stolen? all the installment paid can be considered gone to the drain once your car got stolen. finding back your car in a good condition is another matter. sigh...selalu OPS SIKAP, but not capturing those bad people and put them in jails. did i mention that, someone attempt to steal my sister's car? that's another unreported case. can you imagine how many car thefts cases happen in the country everyday?? DEAR BELOVED POLICE UNCLE AND POLICE AUNTIE, PLEASE TAKE SOME ACTIONS AND DO SOMETHING TO PROTECT US (WHO PAID THE TAXES) ALREADY!!

sigh, corrupted world, corrupted malaysia. cheers, malaysian!

a very short post

this is going to be a short post. just wanna write something but have no mood to write.

i had been MIA for a couple of days. been sleeping for almost 48 hours in 2 days. went out for party the other day and had been drinking. i know that i'm allergic to alcohol but i still drink, you know la, going to a party, must drink a bit one mar. haha...
now, i'm back for more action....LOL

final exam will be on first week of nov and i haven't started studying yet. feel so exhausted after completing all the assignments and project for this semester. feel so tired, wana get back to sleep again...later...

sammy craves for

bak gua


&

picture credit: blogchef.net

sweet and sour pork

geram

sigh, another busy week is almost over. a real hectic week is coming though. feel so tired.

tired of project

tired of useless group member

tired of thesis

tired of deadlines for assignments

tired of exams

tired of presentations

this is a student's life. cannot complain too much. sigh...
since started to study in this uni, i found that i've become a total complainer.
i complain about my group members who do not contribute. i complain them for playing 'tai chi' with me (letting their part undone for me and other group members to finish up).
i really do not know why should i work so hard for. some others are lazy but already got offers for job. sigh. life is unfair.

bias ***********

bias policies

bias humans

feel so tired. i really have no mood to go on with these stuffs. have been really down and moody lately due to all these stuffs. really feel like wanna bang my head to the wall.

feel like having a loooooooooooong holiday, away from here. am waiting anxiously and patiently for my semester break but i need to go lab to do my thesis also. sigh...endless works!

ASS

adapted from The Star: Mind Your English

Ass means a person's buttock.
Ass is a more impolite word to use on anyone around you.
Yet, young people, like moi, always use this word, to tease my friends.
sorry buddy. for me, i feel that i can grow closer to my friends by using this word while conversing. hehe...

all in all, ass in use in many ways to give a negative side of a stuff, or object.

'ass' can also be used as an intensifier to make the meaning of something more umph!

Move your ass - directed to a slow-moving person.
Get your ass in gear, a ruder way of putting 'move your ass'.
Get the lead out of your ass, an even ruder way of putting 'Get your ass in gear'.

Haul ass - move faster

Don't be a pain in the ass - directed to an annoying person

That smells like ass - something smells bad

That is a big-ass piece of cake - That's a very big piece of cake

Crap-ass - something that is bad in quality, poorly made, poorly operated stuff e.g. computer

sad-assed - something that is sad-looking

hard-ass - harsh in a person's treatment, obstinate

he is a bad ass - indicating a person is very tough and strong

to kick ass - to be good at something

raggedy-ass - shabby, beat-up, pathetic



i wanna play with this 'ass' word

sammy is a real bad-ass. although she is sometimes a pain in the ass, all in all, she is still a bad-ass. she would say ' get the lead out of your ass' when someone makes her waits.

how was my skill in making sentences using the word 'ass'??
great isn't it?? :D


refer here for a better explanation on this ass thingy

the consequence of bad-mouthing the most intimidating creatures on earth

last wednesday, siew yeng, sheng wa, keng sern and i went to the cafe for tea break. there was an evening class that day, and we grabbed something to eat so we won't starved ourselves to death at the end of the day. we chat about everything, from geography to politics, and from meteorology to sports (the sky was cloudy and gonna rain soon and i suggested we ate fast and ran back). what am i trying to say? be patient, i'm almost there.

we also shared our opinions on the most intimidating creatures on earth.

we all hate worms especially those worms that you found moving on the toilet floor. ewwwww...just mere mentioning it here disgusts me a lot. we all hate lizards too except for keng sern. he is one crazy person for not hating and scared of lizards.

lizard is a type of reptile and it's very widespread. i mean you can find it anywhere. it's presence has never been welcomed by my family.

i stayed in my old house since i was a baby til form 5 where i shifted to my new house. when i was small, i always saw dozens of lizards during the nights. i didn't see as much of them during the day. i wonder, are lizards nocturnal? anyway...

there was always a lizard that jumped onto my head or body out of sudden and i shouted everytime this happened. i would get scolding from my mom when i shouted as if there were some serious accidents. bad lizards, i got scolding because of you. lemme describe how i felt when it landed on me.

lizards' skin are cold. it's very disgusting. i could feel the coldness whenever i was in contact with lizards. it really disgusts me a lot! furthermore, lizards crawl everywhere, even on the ground.
they crawl on the roads and come back to their so-called home sweet home to 'prey' on us, humans. roads are dirty. it is the place where cats and dogs leave their excretta, their DNA (as in fur and saliva) and all of these dried up and stick to lizards' palm. those lizards would bring back those dirts and pass it on to us, humans. ewwww...i know i am being a lil' bit over paranoid about cleanliness here, but it's true wert...

that night (the day after we shared opinions on how we hate lizards), a lizard said hi to me. when i opened the door of my room, something fell onto my head before it reached the back of my neck. i was scared and got frantic, half jumping and kept using my hand to swing whatever it was off my neck. i only realized it was a lizard when it fell onto the floor. siao lizard, for nothing jumped onto my head. that time i was all clean, i bathed and washed my hair. i was so darn restless knowing that the lizard donated some dirts to me. i was thinking to rewash my hair and bath once again but i gave up as it was already midnight. sob sob, stupid lizard, made me worried for nothing.

picture from arofarmer.blogspot.com

ps: sheng wa and siew yeng, this is to further disgust you guys...hehe

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Power Puff AUNTIE!

Auntie rocks!
this is so true.
my mom is an auntie, everyone mom is an auntie.
once you go out with them, be it to wet market, or grocery shops, you can see how powerful aunties are.
LOL.

my car got stolen last august. yep, saddening but true.
i reported to the insurance company. the personnel from the insurance company told me not to worry much as they would report the car theft case to the bank on behalf of me. (we are still paying installment for that car and the stewpid thief stole it!)
a personnel from bank called today and my mom answered it. she questioned my mom why i didn't report the whole scenario to the bank and demand me to hand in the police report. the personnel also wanted my signature for some documents.
2 weeks ago, i'd been to the bank to get the hire purchase agreement document, as needed by the insurance company. when i went to the bank, the personnel there didn't say anything.
how am i supposed to know they need my signature for some documents and i need to pass them the police report. siao eh.
then hor, my mom scolded her and said last time we went to the bank and they didn't ask for anything from me.
true also le, they just naturally passed me the document i needed.
i ma selamba took it and went off lar.
siao...
serve them right, get scolding from my mom...haha
way to go MOM!

moral of the story:

1. you don't mess with my mom.
2. you don't mess with aunties.
3. AUNTIES ROCK!

sammy wants

this x5

undecided #2

what would you do...

tell the truth and receive sarcasm from others?

you feel extremely hurtful and have some sleepless night


or


lie and go against God?
you feel awful and have a some sleepless night


or


follow orders?
you lose yourself forever

great piece!

Rachmaninoff Concerto N.2-I. Moderato Part 1



Rachmaninoff Concerto N.2-I. Moderato Part 2


i googled a bit on Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No. 2
According to wikipedia, this piece was a work for C minor for piano accompanied by orchestra, composed by Sergei Rachmaninoff.



This was played by Sergei Rachmaninoff himself (o_O)


i was greatly touched by the performances by both Sergei Rachmaninoff and Maestro Tcherkin. the pianists and orchestras were amazing.
i had goose bump when i first listened to this piece and i almost cried.
i got to know this piano concerto thru an anime ~ Nodame Cantabile.
BTW and FYI, it was such a great anime.
anyway, please watch these videos even if you are not free =)

stressful

have been calculating the heat integration for my project since before i came back for holiday. i still can't get the pinch temperature no matter how i modified the source temperature, target temperature, min temperature, and the CP value. i've tried inside out and outside in, i still cannot get the pinch temperature. i'm going berserk soon enough. feel like giving up, but i can't. or else, a few people will throw me some mean words. everyone knows what a girl can do, especially b*tch. ok la, i need to stop complaining. really stop!

was so stressful this afternoon. i gave my mom a cold shoulder. i felt so remorseful about my attitude. so immature. cannot get my problem solved and treat others badly. really need to change this bad side of me.

i always wonder, why am i so stewpid. why my brain cannot function well? why can't i think from another angle and become another albert einstein? why can't i create newton's 4th law and name it as sammy's law? haih...i wasn't born as a genius, but was i born as an idiot????
when i asked my mom why wasn't i born as a genius, she said genius always die at young age.
haih...was i lucky or unlucky?

i hope i can win 4D and then i can stop doing anything. just eat, sleep, shop and travel, until the day i die.

sometimes i just wonder, why should i work so hard. as if i can get anything from my diligentness.

haih, gotta continue my work lieu...

Oil prices sink already

OI !!!!!!!!
PAK LAH,

OIL PRICE SUDAH JATUH LAH.

WHEN YOU WANNA DECREASE THE OIL PRICE IN MALAYSIA.

MAKE EMPTY PROMISES ONLY.

I'M SOOOOOO DISAPPOINTED!

MAD TO BE A MALAYSIAN, NOT CRAZY MAD BUT ANGRY MAD!

the news on oil prices sink is according to AFP


PPS: \_/\_/\_/ 3 glasses of icy cold water also cannot cool down my anger!

Happy Mooncake Festival

no money to buy Haagen Dazs for y'all
nah, virtual Haagen Dazs mooncake
most cordially from Sammy *peace*

my precious collection

my anime collection...hehe^^

1. the law of ueki

2. soul eater

3. shakugan-no-shana

4. saiunkoku monogatari

5. nodame cantabile

6. love hina

7. Koutetsu sangokushi

8. kiba

9. kekkaishi

10. inuyasha

11. GTO

12. D-gray man

13. death note

14. D.C. da capo

15. blood+

16. bleach

17. fate/stay night

18. ah my goddess

stress at maximum level

what the heck!

i'm super stressful.

i don't know what i want.

i don't know what i need.

i don't know who to talk to.

i've got tonnes of works to be done but i don't feel like doing any.

i wanna relax myself and so i watched anime. but i couldn't concentrate on it.

i wanna sleep but i feel guilty for sleeping too much.

i wanna bite something to de-stress but my stomach is constantly on a full condition and i can't eat to de-stress.

i wanna listen to music but when i turn it on, i couldn't concentrate on my works.

i wanna talk to someone but i don't know who.

i wanna decide on which car to buy but i'm afraid i'll regret in the future.

argghhhhh...i feel PATHETIC !!!

what do i WANT???!!!

act cool

my sister and i were trying to act cool...too many free time to waste...hehe

first attempt to act cool

second attempt to act cool

are we as cool as them??
LOL

another cloudy day

after all, i'm still alone.

this feeling is so unbearable and it hits me like a meteor.

going back to becoming an isolated person again...

sammy is very pitiful !

steamboat aftermath

it looks soooo un-appetizing but i still love steamboat.
i'm the steamboat addict of the year....muahahhaha
leftover kaki udang...anyone???

undecided

OR

?

I'm so undecided....
any comments from anyone???

freaking post

i'm freaking stressed recently. i can get so motivated this second and be so unmotivated the next consecutive second. i don't know what has happened to me. i'm freaking pissed off with myself. being so unstable, so unpredictable and so uncontrollable makes me hate my life more. sometimes, i really have no idea what i am doing now. although i'm towards the end of my 4-year-course, i feel so regret with my choice to study this course in UKM in the first place. if i were rich, i wouldn't be here wasting my time and sacrificing my 4.00 that i've obtained from matrics. really don't understand myself and my decision at all.

i was living in my own world for almost a month i.e. haven't been reading the papers for almost a month. got to know that some former senator namely Ahmad Ismail criticise or more precisely expressed (his opinion) that Chinese are only imigrants in malaysia. freaking angry mad at him. who the heck is him to form this statement. he also got his salaries from the nations. we pay the tax and the tax are used to pay some of the scumbags like him. if it weren't our money, he will be eating excretta by now. don't be so loud when you need to depends on other to survive. got a penthouse already, still wants to built another bungalow. better donate to those orphanage or beggars la. the government always encourage us to spend wisely, why don't the government encourage their servant to spend wisely. and no, i don't see that the government is trying hard to unite the nation, not a bit at all. always campaining for integration among the malaysians, WASTE THE NATION'S MONEY. this is something you do on the surface, not thoroughly. if the government really wants us to be united, please at least do something with increasing our life status or cutting the living cost. so great at campaining yet so lousy at making our life easier.

i read another news: malaysia bid for this coming paralympic games to be held here. please don't. always with the reason to increase the number of tourists to visit malaysia. malaysia can't even provide a decent facilities for us, not to mention the disable. try to improve before you beautify. for example, my fac building has been renovated recently. trying so hard to beautify and make it looks like a first class hotel lobby. please improve on the education standard and don't spend money on those unimportant stuff. people always say don't judge a book by its cover, why not use it in this situation. freaking don't understand their thinking at all. oh, i'm so out of topic...i lost my interest to complain =.='''

freaking mad with the thief or thieves who stole my car. making my life so miserable. need to report to the police, whom i detest and to the insurance company so that i may claim money for my lost. arghh...freaking stupid thief. screw them thousand times also cannot cool down my anger.

freaking don't understand my housemates. am i too stupid or something.

1. the water tank was malfunctioning. they called the plumber and they didn't let me know. then suddenly, i saw a guy in my house, i was shocked for a while. they themselves don't like a guy to suddenly appear in the house, why la they want other people to feel that way. ok la, who am i chek, need to inform me first meh...i know they will claim the money from owner, but please at least let me know what's happening. don't give me any info at all, in the end, i'll be blame for not being concern with the things in house.
2. switch off the modem in the day and not at night. if you wanna switch off the modem, switch off at night la, when everyone is sleeping. mana ada orang switch off in the noon, when everyone is using, ok la, maybe not everyone. siao one ar. freaking piss off. somemore, in the noon, it is so bright right, switch ON the light but no one is using. in the night, switch OFF the light and you can't even see a finger. i help switch off light in the day and on the light at night and people claim me wasting their electricity. am i the freak or they are being the freaky freak? freaking don't understand. maybe there's some problem with my brain kut. i always wanted to say this when people said that i waste their electricity: when you walk across the floor, you generate dust, please don't walk at all, so that i don't need to clean so much.

that's all with complaining in the house. i know, i sound like a bitch, and i don't like to be one. i won't be provoked if no one provokes me.

and yeah, the thief not only stole those things i mentioned in the previous post, he or she also stole my newly bought cardigan and 2 umbrellas...

ella ella ella eh eh eh eh
underneath my umbrella...

my car got stolen- Day 5

it has been 5 days since my car got stolen. everything has come to a peaceful state, at least for now. there were quite some stuffs in my car and those things got stolen along with the car by the thief.

list of things that got stolen:

1. 2 calculators
2. 2 thumb drives
3. 2 teddy bears
4. sunglasses
5. some classical cassettes
   
6. bangi house key and johor house key
7. a pair of slippers
8. a pair of black shoes
9. a pair of sport shoes
10. lab coat
11. 2 text books
12. a file and all my notes
13. Bro's water bottle
14. everything a person would have in her/his pencil case

i bought and borrowed some of those stolen things from my coursemates.
thank God that i've settled my transportation problem. God has been blessing me all these while.

my family have been really supportive all these while. my sister always said things happen for a reason and i believe so.
my friends and some of my coursemates have expressed their concerns to me. i'm glad to have them to be with me in this almost unbearable period. anyhow, it has happened and i can blame no one or feel sad about this unwanted and unpredictable incident. sometimes, i still hope that my car will come back to me but i know it is impossible. even if the police found the car, i would sell it as it wasn't as original as it used to be anymore.

life can be so unpredictable. life can be so unexpected. life can be so mysterious. life can be so fun yet tiresome.

another exam is coming and there are so many things to be completed in my design project and thesis. i just couldn't waste my time living in the past or sadness or remorse. what is done cannot be undone. what is lost cannot be retrieved.

my most luxurious gift got stolen

yesterday was the 2nd worst day in my life...so far la...

i sat for my exam yesterday morning. the exam was quite ok. i was happy that all the questions were more to theory and not calculation. i really didn't prepare much for this paper. got so lazy and unmotivated lately. was sleeping more than usual while i was studying for this paper. anyhow, i kinda know how to answer this paper. can't say that i did well, but O O K K lar...

after the exam, i took ktm to KL to settle my payment for part-time job. i parked my car at the ktm station, not illegal parking but a decent parking area for UKM students.

1. toyota
2. ford ranger
3. my wira
4. kancil

after securely locking my car, i went off freely. got a train to KL, and settled my payment at office. after i gao tim-ed my stuff at office, i went to MV to meet yuli. i had sushi king with yuli and we had great time hang out together. after that, i went to watch Wall-E alone as yuli had to get back to church.

Wall-E was good. suitable for small kids. kinda enjoyed the movie also la. i am an anime lover, so you can expect me to like this kind of movie.

after movie, i rushed back to UKM as i need to fetch Sohuen to meet Siew Ching at steamboat restaurant. planned to celebrate Siew Ching's birthday. i reached UKM around 7 p.m.
i was so happy as i got to hang out with my friends later on. i felt so free. was running to get my car as i was quite late already. felt like flying coz i was happy.

when i reached the parking area, i didn't see my car.

my first thought was, did i forget where i park my car?
so i searched the parking area thoroughly. BUT I FOUND NOTHING.
i started pressing my remote control and I HEARD NOTHING.
AND I REALISED that my car was stolen.
i called my sister and she told me to find a friend to get me accompanied first.
so i called Sohuen and asked her to come with her bf to fetch me first. then we went to kajang police station.
i reported to the police.
there was one police officer, a woman. so rude...
she told me to estimate the current market price for my car, i said i didnt know. she told me i need to give an appropriate amount as it will help when i claim for my insurance in the future. then i said, i want to ask my friend first. she replied, " agak je, takkan tak tau?! bukan nak harga tepat, agak la!" i was like, hey, scumbag, my car got stolen, you need to thank God that i didnt cry and was calm to asnwer all your stupid, ridiculous, sound-retarded question. not sympathetic at all. ANOTHER SCUMBAG/IDIOT person i met in life.
my house key was in the car and it got stolen as well. i couldnt get the geran as it was at my house. i couldnt give the police officer my geran that time. she said," you tak de geran, kami tak boleh buat apa-apa. you bagi geran dulu baru kami proceed."
she didnt even tell me how the procedure goes and all. SHIT HER.
called my housemate and inquire whether they were still in. SHIT THEM. no body picked up my call. finally, after a dozen of calls, one replied and said that she was in. i asked whether i could borrow her key as i want to duplicate the key and she said you couldnt wait til monday meh..i was like, monday...everyone went back to their hometown, who will open the door for me??!!
NO BRAIN!!!
i cried for 5 minutes last night when my mom called me...i was so sad la...last gift from my dad. my most luxurious gift, my most precious gift in my life, maybe....

my book, calculator, Bro's water bottle, files, notes, lab coat, sunglasses, classic casette, a half tank of fuel..all gone. SHIT THE THIEF.

when i was quite composed, i wrote down the list of to do things and to buy things...SHIT THE THIEF for making my life miserable...

I FEEL LIKE CURSING

I FEEL LIKE THROWING ROTTEN EGGS AT THE POLICE OFFICER

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING

I FEEL LIKE CUTTING EVERYTHING I SEE INTO 2 PIECES

I FEEL LIKE KICKING ALL THE ASSES I SEE

kena tagged by shengwa

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time: 1631
Name: Sam
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 4 or 5 or 6
Height: self-claimed: 162 cm (some said i'm not that tall =(...)
Where do you live: i can be in 2 place at a time...muahahha (my mind and body are totally not united)

Have you ever
Been on a plane: nope...why this Q? makes me feel jakun
Swam in the ocean: play water by the beach got la
Fallen asleep at school: uncountable number of times
Broken someone's heart: nope
Fell off your chair: NEARLY!!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: nope
Saved e-mails: sometimes...
What is your room like: an L-shape room...unique man
What's right beside you: my mouse and lappy la, ar then how to do this tag???????
What is the last thing you ate: KFC

Ever had
Chicken pox: yes....it got all over my body, even in the head (i meant inside my head)
Sore throat: frequently
Stitches: praise the Lord, nope!
Broken nose: again, praise the Lord, nope!

Do you
Believe in love at first sight: so far...tak berjaya la
Like picnics: nope. i don't enjoy being under the hot sun

Who was the last person
You danced with: chicken dance...emmm....cannot remember who
Last made you smile: haven't been smiling sincerely for a looooooooong time already
You last yelled at: lousy drivers i met while i was driving

Today did you
Talk to someone you like: i don't have anyone that i like right now
Kissed anyone: nope....
Get sick: nope
Talk to an ex: nope, don't even have an ex
Miss someone: i miss of important people in my life

Who do you really hate: those who brag, those who act like bitch, those who spoil my plan, those who got me on my nerves, eh....whatelse.....hmmmmm

Random
Is there a person who is on your mind now: not really
Do you like your hand-writing: yep! most artistic-looking handwriting on earth ever *big grins*
Are your toe nails painted: yes!! with 3 colours, navy blue, chilli red and nude brown
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: no one
What color shirt are you wearing now: sky blue
Are you a friendly person: yes =3
Do you have any pets: i am a pet myself...i need to be fed with food, water, music, anime; i need to be bathed; i need to get myself some sleep everyday...me alone is more than hassle already
Do you sleep with the TV on: nope
What are you doing right now: listening to some musics
Can you handle the truth: i'm trying hard here
Are you closer to your mother or father: i can only be close to my mom now
Do you eat healthy: eh...not really le...i feel guilty pulak >_<
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: NO EX!
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: my bed
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: depends
Are you confident: yep, although my eyes are small

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1. day-dreamed
2. wasted too much time on tv
3. went to school
4. vice president of board of librarian
5. stayed at home after skool

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. go travel around the world
2. stay unemployed for years
3. buy nice cars (one for sister, one for my bro, and one for myself(i'm gonna sell my proton)) and houses (one for staying, a handful for investment, a few for charity)
4. bribe all those imigrant officers so that i could migrate
5. save in the bank *lamest thing to do*

5 of my bad habits
1. talk about releasing my excretta immediately after my meals in front of my frens and family =)
2. day-dreaming too much
3. watch too much anime
4. lazy to study
5. live an unmotivated life

5 places I am living in
1. the galaxy
2. sitting on my chair at this moment
3. planet earth
4. solar system
5. under the sky


5 people I tag
1. BFF- ah gal
2. yu li
3. nally
4. seen
5. irina

it has been a long time since i last updated my blog....
sounds a bit boring with this line already...hmmm....let's put it this way

wassup dude....
check it out!!
LOL

am overstressed and got crazy already...
haih....have been doing project and thesis all these while. no time for myself and to enjoy life.
this is what happened when you are in your final year.
sigh...been spending lotsa time on my project but couldn't solve the problem, others thought i contributed nothing at all...people always see things by its cover, never thoroughly. sigh...put in so much effort also no use, nobody will know.

from this period of busyness, i noticed 2 major problems among myself and my coursemates.

1. we tend to be very scared to take risk. at least myself. while doing project, i was too scared to make daring assumption. i was scared to make mistake. maybe i wanted everything to be perfect w/o any ammendment to be done to my work, but it's impossible. humans always fall while they are learning how to walk. besides that, we are lack of ideas, lack of determination to learn before doing anything, lack of confidence, and lack of basic knowledges.
   
2. i found that some of them are really really dependent and not proactive at all. i mean, we are already at our fourth year, but some are depending wholly on the lecturers to solve their problems. only know how to complain, blame, and not looking at themselves. looking at their weaknesses and take advantage to improve themselves, to reach a higher level. i did what i can as a student, as an adult but always get scolding by some because i was too busybody. hey, 22 years old already, some are even 23, be more mature, do you need orders to do even a small thing?

i'll never inititate anything in the class anymore. playing my role to complement lecturers' is treated as futile by others. sometimes, i feel so stupid for all the hassle i have done. sigh...

it's really not easy to stand firm with your principle and your thoughts. there are always someone to pull you down.
how should i glorify the Mighty One with my life???


has been blurred with my project and thesis. i don't want to be blur anymore...tonight, i will clarify all the blur things and make everything clear!!
*be mong po no more!*
motivation is high again. this is the time where i make good use of my motivation to propel me to go even further. no one should affect my mood or the way i lead my life!!

before that...

got my hair cut last week.
me and my darling....long lost friend

my class picture, taken last week. this is the candid shot from shengwa's cam.
not everyone turned up though

that's all for now la...don't know what to write, dont want to make this post lengthy and boring
later...