fireworks at putrajaya

dom, phing may and i went to putrajaya to catch the fireworks last saturday. we departed at 9 p.m and reached there around 9.30 p.m. we still managed to take a few pictures before the fireworks started. frankly speaking, i really enjoyed watching the fireworks and getting crazy with dom and phing may. three of us were from convent school, and together we can form a crazy group. it was a fun, crazy, full of adventures and tedious night.

the road was not as jam as it was when the fireworks end. we managed to have a glance at the brand new proton persona on the road while we were looking for a strategic place to watch the fireworks.

i can't tell the difference between gen-2 and persona. it looks the same to me, not the type of car i would buy.

we were on the way looking for a best place to watch the fireworks. the road wasn't jam although the cars were moving at low speed

this is dom, flirting with my camera

we waited for less than half an hour and in the end, we managed to catch the splendid and beautiful fireworks.

wow, this is cool

can you see the star inside the circle???

what about love now??? i mean the shape of love...

we got stuck in a jam on the way back and as dom's car was running out of petrol, we decided to stop for a while until the jam was clear. to our surprise, we saw Euro fun fair (ps:it's a malaysian funfair and Euro is just the group's name and i thought it was some grand fun fair that come all the way from Europe*embarrassed smile*) in putrajaya and went there hurriedly. it wasn't
easy to get there as we had to get through all the hassle to reach there, i.e. the super jam.

anyway, we manage to get a ride on the ferris wheel and took some pictures before we left.

the ferris wheel

while we were looking for exit from putrajaya, we saw some cool places and got down to take more pictures =)

on a bridge just across the funfair site

i was climbing over the barrier and got stuck...i couldn't get down but succeeded in the end after a few trials

something porn was going on over there

two 'soh po'


i saw this unique creation and took a picture of it. it was opposite the palace of justice, still in putrajaya

feels like i was in London, i mean the grass

the grass looks cosy and we lie down to take a few pictures...feel like bollywood...kuch kuch kota hei*lol*


3 bff...

on the way out, dom's car level of petrol was on alarming level, so we tried to look for petrol station in putrajaya. putrajaya was super big and the roads were super confusing. we passed a few same roads for couple of times before we managed to find the petrol station. finally, we managed to get out of putrajaya after refill although we got lost again. we reached home around 2 a.m. Man, that was exhausting but we were contented. we sacrificed our time to sleep and study and we got a lot of fun. it had been the happiest night in my life since this sem commenced. all in all, it's time well spent =)

that's all for the fireworks...cool. i hope to do something like this in the future again

i hate my course

i really really hate my course. i'm in the halfway of this long and tedious course, i've got no choice but to continue what i'm doing. what depressed me the most is that living in this world but has no right to say no. i hate what i'm studying, i don't understand what i'm studying. i've got no friends in my course, the lecturers are bias, i hate being assign to work in a group, i hate that my-not-up-to-date-uni !!!! i hate seeing my coursemates despise me because i'm stupid. they are not even four-flatters, what is their stand for despising people?? my life is miserable. i just want to have along break...away from my uni, away from the people i detest, away from betrayer. nobody understands how i feel...everyone thought i'm taking up a good course, bright future, high salary...they don't know they pain i suffer behind all these. why am i born in malaysia??? i don't feel extremely proud being a part of this country. someone told me, when i hate something, i need to conquer it. i hope i can do it. life has been disappointing. i hate my life !!!!

i wonder why don't those two accidents i met just take my life away. i was uninjured each time. was i unlucky or lucky??? if i were given an opportunity to choose again, i don't know what i would do. i'm directionless and aimless. i can't find the reason living on this planet. i busied myself with works, assignments, lab reports, projects...in the end, i got nothing. not even satisfaction, not even the feeling of relief. i'm so lost. every night, i was awaken from my sleep because of the pressure i felt from this life. i couldn't sleep well in the night. even in my dreams, i dream of completing my work, the remorse feeling of not being able to pay my dad back. i'm so stressful. i need to be extra cautious so that i won't be betrayed by my coursemates, again. no one has any idea how much burden i have on my shoulders. i just wish to be free...

i need to improve myself so that i'm competent. i like improvement, it really gives me satisfaction. but everyone in my course seems to stop improving themselves, i mean in the sense that being able to communicate with others. all they know is just study.

i met back stabbers, traitors, hypocrites and loads of evil people in my course. i don't mean to say that i'm 100% perfect. i taught myself to be mean so others won't step over my head. reality just teaches people how to survive in this cruel and cold-blooded world.

early in the morning

this morning's weather was cool and windy. it started to rain around 4.30 a.m.
just another morning of waking up early to complete my assignment...my daily routine
i miss my bed and i miss the feeling of sleeping 8 hours per day

this was the picture taken at 7 a.m.(the outside view from the living room)

time is not enough

wow! it feels like just yesterday where i had lab until 5 p.m. time is definitely not enough for me. Assignments, projects, labs, reports keep coming up before i manage to finish it. my room is in such a mess now, with a cluttered desk, untidy bed and floor filled with my DNA. I really have no time to keep my room clean and tidy like i used to, long time ago. it's either save some time for sleep or sacrifice my sleeping time to keep my room clean. my CF friends don't believe when i told them that i am super busy like a soldier bee. sigh, my CF friend told me that i suck at time management. she told me i must know how to say no. wah!! takkan i want to say no to assignments given by lecturers. there's no time to be managed. the time is just not enough. with competition coming along, i can hardly breathe. oopssy...i was complaining since the first word. let me finish just a lil' bit more...i had lab til about 5 p.m. yesterday. i was supposed to leave earlier as it was just a short and easy lab. unpredictably, the apparatus broke down and we ended up taking readings from the previous group.

wow...such a super expensive apparatus broke down easily. it looks new but it doesn't feel new.
you know what i mean...

this week had been a hectic week. with 3 exams coming soon, tonnes of assignment to be completed...'sei lo'... we are just as busy as doctors...now don't look down on engineers. without engineers, the doctors won't have all the machines, and apparatus to heal a sick person. LOL.
back with the hectic week, nowadays, i have reduced my time on chatting in MSN. I haven't watched the tv since i started my semester. this is already the 6th week of this semester. half of the semester has passed in just a blink of eyes.

only in the midst of busyness i realised how i used to take things for granted. why do human only realised how they take things for granted until they really miss some part in their lives?? my bad...

i wish i had 40 hours per day. but, humans are always greedy. if i were given 40 hours a day, i would want more. Now only i understand why there's a series of James Bond~007-world is not enough *if i'm not mistaken*
ps: i'm not a 007 fan

my appetite and desire for food has increased immensely lately. i guess it's because i was to stressful and i need some food to balance back my hormone. i was convicted by my housemates that i was having pms for a few times*sad*. i have asked my housemates to go for curry ho fan for a few days already and finally, Dom promised to have curry ho fan for dinner tomorrow*peace*. by hook or by crook, we will drag phing may along *evil laughter*
ps:besides sushi, i'm extremely crazy with spicy foods, especially curry...yummy

i had a dilemma today. after i went to lab today, i was thinking whether i should go and eat curry ho fan alone as i wanted to eat curry since last week. in the end, i went to petronas and bought myself a packet of roller coaster and a can of coke and took it as my dinner.

bbq flavour


i forgot when was the last time i had my coke

there i was, having dinner and doing reports at the same time
ps: this is the most uncluttered desk i had since i got busy

i know it's unhealthy but i was craving for curry ho fan just now and i was irrational but i was contented with it =). sigh...a messy life

Pastor Jason and his family

Pastor Jason and his family left Malaysia for United States last Sunday. They came during the morning service and bade us a tearful farewell. Pastor Jason got an offer from one of the church in United States. He will be staying in Queens, New York for the coming 3 to 5 years. I've been attending this church since my first year in uni and basically, i've known his family for about 2 years. Although it's not a long period, it's really hard for me to say goodbye to them. All I can do is pray for them and wish them all the best in the future. Here are some pictures i took on the day they left...

Pastor and me

Auntie Janet and me(our eyes are red)

Junny and me

Yew Jin and me

Suanny and me

Yew Jin's bushy hair



I'm not the director in this scene. I just happened to be the camera girl*hehe*

After church, we went to pastor's house. After hanging out there for a few minutes, we went straight away to KLIA. We had to leave early as pastor they all had tonnes of luggages to be brought along. You know, we had to go there and weight all those luggages to make sure they were not overweight. It's such a scene seeing them transferring and balancing all the luggages so they were fit to be shifted to plane.

approaching KLIA

KLIA building

Pastor waiting to be attended


one last hug with pastor and family before they went off for eternity...i mean a long time

so...this is goodbye

a mirror and a life

A camera can't take a picture of itself. It can only take picture for other objects. Likewise for human, we can't see the weakness or the goodness in ourselves. We can't know how we look like unless our appearances are reflected through a mirror or a pool of water. We tend to criticize or complaint about others without noticing that we are nothing much but same like others. Think back and try to fit ourselves in others' shoes. Try to think, look and evaluate things from a different aspects and you will see how weak and bad you are. Stop judging others !!!
I've learnt my lesson and understand how people feel when i do something. These days, I tend to think how people feel before i take my action. I really really realize this after living for 21 years. I wonder have i grown up or was i to naive. Undeniably, we are learning how to live a better life each and every second in this life. I admit that I didn't learn well in the past. I made conclusions on certain things fast and ended up with remorse feelings. I need an attitude adjustment and a detergent-brain wash. I hope I may learn something (useful) in this stage of life and when i look back in the future, I won't feel bad for what i did. I need a 'mirror' to reflect back what i've done. I need friends to tell me about things that i've handled wrongly. I need a friends who tell the truth. Telling the truth in the sense that wanting people to have better improvement in life. That's why i hate hypocrites. They only made themselves and the people around them to become worse and jeopardizing this world.


Ah gal and stephanie came to KL yesterday and we went to Mid Valley, ss-ing and chit-chatting. Too bad, I am busy with assignments, quizzes, exams and competition, i only get to meet them yesterday. although in the midst of busyness, i still feel empty. I don't know what i am doing. I know this is not what i want, this is not what i want to study, but i am in the middle of the journey. I have no choice but to continue. I hate making choices because i am always wrong. Regrets and disappointment keep emerging in my life. I feel pathetic !!!

Marie Curie said ~~~

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

Booker T. Washington said~~~

Success is measured not so much by the position one has reached in life, as by the obstacles one has overcome while trying to succeed.

new definition for 'UKM'

UKM = Universiti Kerosakan Mental

ps: actually UKM is meant to be Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia ( National Unversity of Malaysia)
and i gave a new definition to it ~ mentally-damaged unversity