it has been a long time since i last updated my blog....
sounds a bit boring with this line already...hmmm....let's put it this way

wassup dude....
check it out!!
LOL

am overstressed and got crazy already...
haih....have been doing project and thesis all these while. no time for myself and to enjoy life.
this is what happened when you are in your final year.
sigh...been spending lotsa time on my project but couldn't solve the problem, others thought i contributed nothing at all...people always see things by its cover, never thoroughly. sigh...put in so much effort also no use, nobody will know.

from this period of busyness, i noticed 2 major problems among myself and my coursemates.

1. we tend to be very scared to take risk. at least myself. while doing project, i was too scared to make daring assumption. i was scared to make mistake. maybe i wanted everything to be perfect w/o any ammendment to be done to my work, but it's impossible. humans always fall while they are learning how to walk. besides that, we are lack of ideas, lack of determination to learn before doing anything, lack of confidence, and lack of basic knowledges.
   
2. i found that some of them are really really dependent and not proactive at all. i mean, we are already at our fourth year, but some are depending wholly on the lecturers to solve their problems. only know how to complain, blame, and not looking at themselves. looking at their weaknesses and take advantage to improve themselves, to reach a higher level. i did what i can as a student, as an adult but always get scolding by some because i was too busybody. hey, 22 years old already, some are even 23, be more mature, do you need orders to do even a small thing?

i'll never inititate anything in the class anymore. playing my role to complement lecturers' is treated as futile by others. sometimes, i feel so stupid for all the hassle i have done. sigh...

it's really not easy to stand firm with your principle and your thoughts. there are always someone to pull you down.
how should i glorify the Mighty One with my life???


has been blurred with my project and thesis. i don't want to be blur anymore...tonight, i will clarify all the blur things and make everything clear!!
*be mong po no more!*
motivation is high again. this is the time where i make good use of my motivation to propel me to go even further. no one should affect my mood or the way i lead my life!!

before that...

got my hair cut last week.
me and my darling....long lost friend

my class picture, taken last week. this is the candid shot from shengwa's cam.
not everyone turned up though

that's all for now la...don't know what to write, dont want to make this post lengthy and boring
later...