Salty Chocolate

During the holidays, i was busy gorging myself with goodies. Well, you can't blame me cos my mum's an excellent cook and it was that period of time when the Chinese population of this country stock their houses full of snacks and drinks and what nots.

I remember once when I was really in the mood for something sweet. Then I remember my mum saying that there are some imported chocolates and Hershey's in the fridge. So there I was scrutinizing the fridge for something that looks like chocolate.

Then my eyes caught a golden wrapped small bar of something at the eggs compartment of the fridge. Ah... chocolate.

I took it and slowly peeled off the shiny wrapper. Enjoying the moment. (Eh, that's the art of eating chocolate.) Wow, cool, it's white chocolate. Quite unique because its spotted and the texture is not smooth.

Anyway, I took a small bite. The taste was different. it's... salty. So special. Not bad. I put the whole thing into my mouth.

First, the salty taste.

Then, it became too salty. Weird.

Taste so familiar. Like..

like..

like chicken stock.

Then, I remembered that my mum keeps Maggi chicken stocks at the eggs compartment of the fridge.

I vomitted the whole thing out and drank water the whole night.

disclaimer: this article was written by one of my friends based on his 'tragic experience'.haha

engineering humour

Q: What is the definition of an engineer?

A: Someone who solves a problem you didn't know you had in a way you don't understand.

Q: When does a person decide to become an engineer?

A: When he realizes he doesn't have the charisma to be an undertaker.

Q: How can you tell an extroverted engineer?

A: When he talks to you, he looks at your shoes instead of his own.

Q: Why did the engineers cross the road?

A: Because they looked in the file and that's what did last year.

Q: How do you drive an engineer completely insane?

A: Tie him to a chair, stand in front of him, and fold up a road map the wrong way.

the above article was adapted from a web page. No offence to all the engineer-to-be out there because I myself is going to be an engineer in the future =)

Cikgu BM bodoh

Murid : Selamat pagi, Cikgu!

Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi sahaja?
Petang dan malam awak doakan saya tak selamat?

Murid : Selamat pagi, petang dan malam Cikgu!

Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh orang! Kata selamat sejahtera!Senang dan penuh bermakna.Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid : Selamat sejahtera Cikgu!

Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik.Hari ini Cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat, lawan bagi perkataan tersebut, faham?

Murid : Faham, Cikgu!

Cikgu : Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid : (senyap)

Cikgu : Pandai!

Murid : Bodoh!

Cikgu : Tinggi!

Murid : Rendah!

Cikgu : Jauh!

Murid : Dekat!

Cikgu : Keadilan!

Murid : UMNO!

Cikgu : Salah!

Murid : Betul!

Cikgu : Bodoh!

Murid : Pandai!

Cikgu : Bukan!

Murid : Ya!

Cikgu : Oh Tuhan!

Murid : Oh Hamba!

Cikgu : Dengar ini!

Murid : Dengar itu!

Cikgu : Diam!

Murid : Bising!

Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!

Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu : Mati aku!

Murid : Hidup kami!

Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!

Murid : Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!

Murid : Rajin kami belajar Cikgu!

Cikgu : Kamu gila!

Murid : Kami siuman!

our souls are exceedingly sorrowful

After the car accident i had last weekend, some friends who knew about it came to me to give me a word of comfort. I am so glad to have them in my life. One of my friend, Kit How talked a lot to me. About his experiences, in dealing with malays as well. Well, we have the same point of view and opinions. Both of us feel so disappointed in the way the malays in Malaysia live and treat other nations of different skin colours. He told me the accident that took his younger brother life away.

His brother was 18 years old when he passed away. Such a young and bright teenager. I would just called his brother A here. A was riding on his bike to tuition class that very day, when he met with the deadly accident. A was stopping at the traffic light and waiting for the traffic light to turn green. After a few moments, the light finally turned green. A slowly accelerated on his bike and moved on. Suddenly, a car from the opposite road who was supposed to stop take a sharp turn and banged into A and knocked him down. A was hurriedly sent to the nearest hospital. A was still conscious when he was charged into the hospital. He told his family that he obeyed the traffic rule and only started to move when it was his turn. He told his family that he didn't cut the red light while on the other hand, the driver said A cut the red light. But somehow, there were no witnesses to prove who was right. So, the police procrastinted on investigating this case.

A was badly injured where he broke one of his leg and his face was badly hurt yet he could not feel the pain. The doctor at the government hospital, which was a malay said that A was ok and it was not a suitable time for him to undergo a surgery. So, A, his family and the doctor waited til it was the right time. A and his family somehow believed in what the doctor said. After a couple of days, A had difficulty in breathing and was complaining the pain he had on his chest. After some tests on A, the doctor said A was ok and decided to put in a tube to help A in his breathing. When the process of inserting the tube in A, A was injected with pain reliever (I dont know what's the term for ubat bius) and he was left to sleep for the whole process and never wake up again. A was dead.

A was then being dissected to find the cause of his death. It was the lipid from the broken foot that flowed into the blood stream and caused blockage in the heart and directly caused the difficulty in breathing. The doctor apologised to A's family for his death. Later on, A's family when to some expert in private hospital to asked whether it is able to detect the flow of lipid into the blood stream and the answer was yes. A's family went back to the hospital and demanded further explaination on why the doctor couldn't detected the flow of lipid into the blood stream. A's death was because of the careless mistake done by the doctor. A young bright teenager died like that because of some simple mistakes done by some so-called experienced MALAY doctor.

A's family suffer from his death. They still cry whenever they think of A. Even a guy like my coursemate would cry over his brother's death. Can you imagine how the doctor's work has caused a big effect upon the deceased's family?

I really doubt the credibilty and ability of the doctors in the government hospital to judge a patient's conditions. I feel so sorry for A.

By the way, the driver who knocked A was a malay driver and he was set to be free because the police couldn't find anything evidence or witnesses that can prove that the driver was guilty. Another culprit is set free into the society to take another innocent's life.

It's time for the government to has better judgement before they recruit someone to work in the important departments such as the hospital and police station.

my soul is exceedingly sorrowful -II

This is the fifth day after the car accident. I am slowly recovering from the pain and frustration I feel inside my heart. I'm so glad to have such good families and friends. My dad came all the way from Johor to KL to check on me, of course the car as well. He didn't even scold me for being involved in the accident. But he didn't say a lot of words of comfort to me as well, typical dad, cares about you, but it's just too hard for him to express his feeling. My dad said just let him settle everything, including the summon I have to pay and some insurance procedure. My mum kept on calling me for the past few days to comfort me, to console me, to tell me that everything is ok now. She told me to forget what had happened, but I just couldn't. It still hurts whenever I think of the accident and the bitter experience. My sister came to find me and brought me to McD and listen to me. While my brother who seldom calls me, called me on the day after the accident to ask about my condition. I am so glad to have them. My pastors did call me as well. They asked me about the whole accident and how am I, listened to me, consoled me and gave me loads of support. While some of my coursemates kept on doing something to cheer me up, supporting me, standing by my side. After the whole accident, finally, I realised who are being sincere to me and who are not. All in all, I bought a big lesson from this accident.

my soul is exceedingly sorrowful

Something big happened on me last night. I had an accident. I am still not sure whether the malay guy is wrong or it is I who breach the rules. After the accident, my brain was in a total blur. I couldn't think rationally or logically. I made my first call to my sister to ask for advice and help. After a few moments of conversation with my sister, finally I was back, i.e .I could think of what to do next and handled the whole situation quite well, I supposed.

When the malay guys approached me, I was quite panic and tried my best to negotiate with them (I only lowered down the window beside the driver's seat). They demanded me to get out of the car. But I insisted to stay in my car. They kept on ordering me to get out of my car and I insisted to stay in the car. This is some part of our conversation:

Malay Guy and his friend : m
Me: s
My friend who was in the car with me: a

m: amoi, awak tau apa awak sudah buat?
s: saya tau, sorry, saya rasa saya tak salah sepenuhnya. apa awak nak sekarang
m: amoi, awak turun dari kereta sekarang dan cakap dengan saya.
s: saya tak nak. apa yang awak nak cakap, cakapsaja macam ni.
m: amoi, saya orang baik
s: mana saya tau awak orang baik ke tak. saya tak kenal awak. cakap saja macam ni.
m: ok, moi. awak langgar kereta saya serius ni. saya nak awak bagi nombor ic dan alamat rumah awak kat saya. nanti saya baiki kat bengkel dan awak pergi bayar.
s: saya tak nak. awak bukannya polis atau sesiapa, awak tak berhak mengambil particular saya.
m: habis awak nak macam mana?
s: saya bagi nombor hp saya kat awak. itu saja.
m: mana saya atu awak tipu saya ke tak?
s: saya janji saya akan pergi bayar
m: eh, amoi, babi betul la. saya tak percaya kat awak la
s: saya pun tak percaya kat awak juga
m: habis awak nak macam mana
s: either saya bagi nombor hp saya kat awak, awak pergi baiki dan saya bayar. kalau awak tak nak, saya pun tak boleh buat apa apa.

I quickly negotiate with my friend. She told me to give them whatever they want. But, I said they have no right to have my ic number and my particular. Both of the malay guys kept on pushing us and I told them to hold on as I made calls to ask some male friends to come to the scene to help me as both of us are girls and it's very dangerous to talk to 2 strangers like that.
I took quite some time for my friends to come to give me a hand. At the same time, I was contacting a Bangi friend to ask for the police station's number and hope that some police officers would come to settle everything.

Police officer: p
me: s

s: police station ke ni?
p: ya
s: saya involved dalam satu accident. bolehkah encik datang ke tempat kejadian sekarang dan settle problem ni?
p: sila ke balai polis kajang
s: apa? encik tak boleh order beberapa officer datang ke sini ke?
p: awak pergi saja ke balai polis kajang
s: ok

I just hung up the phone. Idiot and stupid police officer. Wouldn't it be better if some police officers come and settle the problem on the spot.

m: amoi, saya orang serdang. kita pergi ke balai polis serdang saja
s: tapi police tu panggil saya pergi ke balai kajang
m: awak tau jalan ke?
s: tunggu kawan saya datang dulu nanti kita pergi
m: settle kat sini saja la moi
s: saya hanya boleh bagi awak nombor hp saya
m: mana boleh. nanti awak lari??
s: kalau macam tu, kita pergi balai saja
m: babi betul la

Then , both of the malay guys went back to their car and I waited in my car with my friend

s: can you call someone else to come?
a: let me call nyap
s: ok, be fast
a: nyap is not here. let me call my senior
s: whatever
a: he doesn't pick up phone
s: so how?
a: i call jun ming
s: okok

After a few moments,
a: he's coming
s: you think he can handle this?
a: i dont know
s: let me call gen hong
a: okok

After we made calls, we got gen hong and jun ming. But it seemed like they are taking forever to reach the scene

m: lamanya kawan awak
s: tunggu la kejap
m: eh, cepatlah, jangan buang masa la
s: awak nak settle problem kan, tunggu la. saya banyak masa, kalau awak suntuk masa, awak pergi dulu la. saya tak kisah
m: jangan tipu saya, kawan awak nak datang ke?
s: ya. kalau saya nak tipu awak, takkan saya berada kat sini lagi. saya dah pergi awal awal la
m: lah, babi betul la

After a while, jun ming finally arrived. I don't know what he said to them. My friend went down along to listen to them. After a few minutes, gen hong came. He straight away went to them and talked. I was shouting, can anyone please listen to me. I wanted to get out of the car. To my surprise, I couldn't opened the door. It must have been the collision just now.
After a while, jun ming and gen hong came back to me.

gen hong: g
Jun ming: j

s: how?
g: what you wanna do now?
s: i think i wanna report
g: i think it's your fault
s: it's not totally my fault
g: no matter how, the malay would still help the malay
j: ya
s: then, he want my ic and my particular
g: then ar, depends on you lo

My sister and her friend came

my sister: sis
her friend: kh

s: ah jie
sis: how? come out la
s: i couldn't
sis: use the other side
s: okok

We went to the malay guy

m: sekarang amoi ni langgar saya
sis: sekarang kita tak boleh determine siapa yang salah. kita report saja
m: prosedur banyak la
sis: tak apa .kita tak kisah
kh: sekarang kita pergi dulu kat balai
m: settle kat sini je la
sis: tak pa, prosedur banyak. kita ada banyak masa
kh: ya la. kita pergi balai dulu
m:kalau kena bayar, awak bayar semua
kh: mana boleh. kita tengok polis cakap siapa salah
m: mana boleh
s: kita pergi balai dulu. awak cakap awak suntuk masa kan. cepatlah, pergi balai
m: awak tau jalan?
s: tau

then, i asked genhong and jun ming to go back first. I ask my friend to follow jun ming to go home first. My sis and her friend and I headed towards balai polis in bangi. the police officer said we can only fill the forms there and we still need to go to balai kajang to report again. then , we go to balai kajang. the malay guy were so pissed off and shouting at us and asked us to get on our ass. Gosh, so rude.

To my surprise, my friend and Jun ming came to give support. I was so touched. After about one hour of talking to police officers, taking some photos finally, we came to a conclusion. The seargent said that it was my fault and I need to pay RM 200 for the offence(break akta 10- mengganggu trafik). I was like, what. Ok, whatever. And i pay everything and the malay guy pay nothing. Fine!!!!

m: puas hati tak sekarang
s: awak biarkan saya la. bukannya awak yang bayar
sis: sudah settle kan sekarang, then ok la, nak cakap banyak lagi buat apa.

Then, we just went back. I feel so innocent but whatever. I come out with a conclusion now.
a) malay would help the malay no matter what
b) whatever happen, don't ever give your particulars and ic number to others. It's top secret
c) friends nd family are always the best
d) be grateful and thankful to the Lord no matter what happen
e) don't get intimidated by others no matter what happen, if they scold you, scold them back.
f) don't be panic. stay cool and steady
g) report to police whenever you meet an accident

After everything that had happened, I didn't cry at all. wow, I am so brave and super. Biggest lesson so far in my life.

fasting and prayer

Jeremiah 17:9
The heart is deceitful above all things,
And desperately wicked;
Who can know it?

Today is the first day of fasting and prayer. I found that my heart has too many desires and is very sinful. So, I decided to have a week of fasting and prayer. I hope that Lord will bless me and cleanses my heart and renew my spirit. I deeply hope that everything may be easy for me and I can manage to 'bertahan' til one week.

Exodus 17:15

...The LORD is my Banner

to AH GAL

Ah Gal and me

I've read your blog and found out that you still cannot forget him. Gal, it's time to move on. There's no point to wait for this unfaithful guy anymore. Keep on with you life, enjoy your life and don't suffer yourself because of him. I want you to know that I'll always support you no matter what. You can talk to me whenever you need a friend and I'll always be there for you. Both of us are busy and we don't get to see and talk to each other everyday but I'm still concerned about you even though we are at two very different places. No matter what happen, I'm still your friend, a close friend.

busy weeks

According to lunar month, today is the second last day of Chinese New Year, but the thing is, the mood of celebrating Chinese New Year is gone. I start studying on third day of CNY as i have three papers (Reactor, Statistics and Organic Chemistry) coming straight up after CNY. I still have another two papers (Statistics and Organic Chemistry) next week. It was kind of disappointment to me that although I've read thoroughly the chapters that were to be tested in exam, I couldn't really do well in that paper. I slack in the first question, and the first question happened to be exactly the same question in my tutorial. I did that tutorial on my own and I just couldn't understand why I couldn't answer it. My lecturer said the first question was a bonus for everyone of us and whoever couldn't it means he or she doesn't take the tutorial questions seriously. Excuse me, i was like... what? I did all the questions on my own, spending days to figure out how to do all those super difficult questions. It doesn't feel good. I was thinking what's the purpose of studying so hard during CNY and I couldn't answer questions well. I mean there were loads of doubt in my answers. Sigh...Life is not easy.


Another disappointment happened when i realize that most of my coursemates are in the dean list while I'm not. I did work hard for the past semesters and I worked real hard. I did all the tutorial questions on my own, studied for all the quizzes and exams and the fact is that I still couldn't get good results. I put extra hard works in all the group works, working twice the load others had worked and I still didn't get what I am supposed to get. There's another integrated project awaiting to be done and I am grouped with the same ol' members again. Other group members don't seem to care about the project. Procrastinating in everything they do, giving me excuses that there's still loads of time before the due date. It will end up the same like last project, ending up in me doing everything, editing, typing (I typed 90% of the project), finding the flow diagram and got it to be printed. No one ever realised what I have done and for sure they'll complain whenever I've done something wrong, even minor mistakes.


I'm still struggling now to finish studying my organic chemistry and statistics. Having to memorise all the formulas and reaction mechanism really burdened me immensely. I'd planned to go to church today as I 've not been there for a couple of weeks. I found out that they were practising for sketch for the coming Indonesia mission trip and thought that I would be of no use even if I went so I decided not to go. Better keep on with my studies and doing some research for the project. I really hope that I can push myself into the dean list this semester. I'm gonna keep my finger crossed. Hope that He will pick me up whenever I feel weary or restless or when I'm down. I really need loads of strength from Him as I need to carry out my responsibility well and at the same time give a good personal testimony to others especially those non-Christian. Be with me Lord and let me hang on to You.