was that a sign?

i was praying last night on my bed before i went to sleep. it's not God but i who had forsaken Him for the past few days. i was in denial for the past few days. giving excuses to myself, not having any time for Him and all.
i went back to Him last night. i notice that He hasn't abandoned me even once. He gave me a lot during the days that i didn't talk to Him. financial provisions, family to take care of me, friends to be with me and He is even more gentle to me nowadays. He is good to me, all the time.
i back then, started to cry. tears kept running down my cheeks. my heart was pounding a bit faster yet it was warm. i like those mixed feelings. it made me felt that my life wasn't just a straight line. there was God to be with me.
was that a sign? a sign that God was beside me during that time? or a sign that God was trying to tell me something yet i couldn't hear? or a sign that God was comforting me? i know not.
my pastor told me that i'm actually sensitive to the flow of the Holy Spirit. am i? i know not. i didn't realise that God granted me these gift until someone told me about it. then, i started to be very cautious. tried to feel God's presence whenever i'm worshipping. yet, due to my lack of faith in Him, i felt the same as i was before.
i'm still unable to open to Him. i worry too much, i guess.
yet, life is wonderful. i know God is always there for me. make me cry whenever i'm sad, make me laugh whenever i'm happy. i think this is the way He gives me peace. this is how He bless my life. i do not regret taking Him as my Father.