my birthday

Today, 24^th of June 2007 is my big day. It’s my birthday!!! Yes, it’s my 21^st birthday. My friends told me that I’m a big girl now and I need to ‘be’ an adult. Normally, this is the age where Chinese girls get their ‘golden key’ from their parents. Getting a ‘golden key’ means they have gained absolute freedom from their parents. Well, I didn’t get any key from my mum and I didn’t get that absolute freedom from my mum. I’m still under my mum’s control concerning certain things. I’ll always be a three-year-old in my mum’s heart. I’m still the ‘cute Yenky’ to my sister. I’m still a ‘younger’ sister to my brother. All in all, I’m still protected by my family and they have the ‘copy rights reserved’ of me. It could be good or the other way round. I’m certainly okay with this, of course only in certain aspects. Now that my dad is not around, I seriously need to be more matured than what this age requires. I need to jump into my mum’s shoes first before I made any decision or do anything. I need to let me family know that there’s not just an empty coconut shell in the skull. When someone gets older, his or her responsibilities get bigger.

I would like to thank my friends for their greetings. It really meant a lot to me.

Meng Her called me around 12.05 a.m. She and Alice sang me a birthday song. I was so happy and felt grateful for having them as my friends. Later, approximately 12.40 a.m., they popped up in front of my house. They bought me a birthday cake, 4 lollypops and a can of bird’s nest drink. There was this funny situation where the candles they bought were instant relighting candles. The candles wouldn’t get out regardless of how many times we blew it. Seriously, it took us about 5 minutes to really stop the candles from relighting back. After we had checked back the label, we noticed that the candles relight instantly. We lol. We took some pictures, talked about things and laughed all along. They went back at about 1.30 a.m. The whole neighbourhood was filled with our laughter. Oh, did I mention that we celebrated my birthday in Meng Her’s car? Love of kisses to both of them.

Keng Fai called me this afternoon to wish me.

My friends from my society called me as well.

Phing May was the first person to wish me via SMS. Her SMS arrived at 12 a.m. sharp.

Keng Sern, Siew Ching, Poh Yee, Fong Lin, Lee Fang, Mee Ling also sent me SMS.

Dom attempted to call me but to no avail because Meng Her was singing to me that time. Btw, my sister also sent me a song thru SMS. Not forgetting those who have left me comments in Friendster. Also special thanks to Gary for sending me an e-card. Thank you to everyone who remembers my birthday although I am no special person.

I have a great sense of belonging to my family and friends. Mengher asked me what’s my birthday wishes. It took me quite sometime to really figure out what I really want. I can’t help but to admit that I’m a greedy person. I have a few visions and my birthday wish is for my visions to come true. Allow me clarify something here. Dreams are different from visions. Dreams are something that someone might bring it to reality, but most of the time, it’s just some imaginations that can hardly come to reality. Visions are something people imagine and it’s just the matter of time before they come true.

I’m gonna get big presents this year. My sister is going to give me a watch, a branded one. I requested my mum to buy me a pair of shoes. I’m gonna buy myself an mp3 player. Well, I will have what I want and I’m happy about it =)

PS: ah gal ar, give up on asking what I want for my birthday. Your presence is a big birthday present to me already, really.

I have a car of my own, a laptop and great family and friends, what else can I ask for?

Although I lost my dad, I realized that there is someone who cares about me. I can’t ask the dead to come back alive. All I can do is to live well and treasure all the things I have.