freaking post

i'm freaking stressed recently. i can get so motivated this second and be so unmotivated the next consecutive second. i don't know what has happened to me. i'm freaking pissed off with myself. being so unstable, so unpredictable and so uncontrollable makes me hate my life more. sometimes, i really have no idea what i am doing now. although i'm towards the end of my 4-year-course, i feel so regret with my choice to study this course in UKM in the first place. if i were rich, i wouldn't be here wasting my time and sacrificing my 4.00 that i've obtained from matrics. really don't understand myself and my decision at all.

i was living in my own world for almost a month i.e. haven't been reading the papers for almost a month. got to know that some former senator namely Ahmad Ismail criticise or more precisely expressed (his opinion) that Chinese are only imigrants in malaysia. freaking angry mad at him. who the heck is him to form this statement. he also got his salaries from the nations. we pay the tax and the tax are used to pay some of the scumbags like him. if it weren't our money, he will be eating excretta by now. don't be so loud when you need to depends on other to survive. got a penthouse already, still wants to built another bungalow. better donate to those orphanage or beggars la. the government always encourage us to spend wisely, why don't the government encourage their servant to spend wisely. and no, i don't see that the government is trying hard to unite the nation, not a bit at all. always campaining for integration among the malaysians, WASTE THE NATION'S MONEY. this is something you do on the surface, not thoroughly. if the government really wants us to be united, please at least do something with increasing our life status or cutting the living cost. so great at campaining yet so lousy at making our life easier.

i read another news: malaysia bid for this coming paralympic games to be held here. please don't. always with the reason to increase the number of tourists to visit malaysia. malaysia can't even provide a decent facilities for us, not to mention the disable. try to improve before you beautify. for example, my fac building has been renovated recently. trying so hard to beautify and make it looks like a first class hotel lobby. please improve on the education standard and don't spend money on those unimportant stuff. people always say don't judge a book by its cover, why not use it in this situation. freaking don't understand their thinking at all. oh, i'm so out of topic...i lost my interest to complain =.='''

freaking mad with the thief or thieves who stole my car. making my life so miserable. need to report to the police, whom i detest and to the insurance company so that i may claim money for my lost. arghh...freaking stupid thief. screw them thousand times also cannot cool down my anger.

freaking don't understand my housemates. am i too stupid or something.

1. the water tank was malfunctioning. they called the plumber and they didn't let me know. then suddenly, i saw a guy in my house, i was shocked for a while. they themselves don't like a guy to suddenly appear in the house, why la they want other people to feel that way. ok la, who am i chek, need to inform me first meh...i know they will claim the money from owner, but please at least let me know what's happening. don't give me any info at all, in the end, i'll be blame for not being concern with the things in house.
2. switch off the modem in the day and not at night. if you wanna switch off the modem, switch off at night la, when everyone is sleeping. mana ada orang switch off in the noon, when everyone is using, ok la, maybe not everyone. siao one ar. freaking piss off. somemore, in the noon, it is so bright right, switch ON the light but no one is using. in the night, switch OFF the light and you can't even see a finger. i help switch off light in the day and on the light at night and people claim me wasting their electricity. am i the freak or they are being the freaky freak? freaking don't understand. maybe there's some problem with my brain kut. i always wanted to say this when people said that i waste their electricity: when you walk across the floor, you generate dust, please don't walk at all, so that i don't need to clean so much.

that's all with complaining in the house. i know, i sound like a bitch, and i don't like to be one. i won't be provoked if no one provokes me.

and yeah, the thief not only stole those things i mentioned in the previous post, he or she also stole my newly bought cardigan and 2 umbrellas...

ella ella ella eh eh eh eh
underneath my umbrella...