so wild...

mum: ah mei ar...where are you?
me: i'm at home. why call me at this hour?
mum: don't go out today ar...
me: why? what is happening?
mum: em...no la...
me: what? tell me...
mum: you didn't read papers today ar?
me: no. why?
mum: there's some government meeting going on in KL. some parties disagreed with the outcome or something like that. there might be an outcry happening somewhere. so, don't go out ya
me: oh...okok
mum: so, just stay at home ya...

what's happening again? after i hung up, i quickly went to the star's website and read the news. then, i came to comprehend the whole thing. there were some opposition parties and the government...some crisis happened and i wasn't clear what was it about.
sigh...the world has become so wild and dangerous. demonstrations, landlord's daughter was being raped, a transvestite was strangled to death, floods all over malaysia, a man claimed himself as Ayahanda Gunung Ledang (claimed that he has resurrected for 9 times...some 'wan kat' guy), wanita umno complaining air asia's uniform for air stewardesses are too 'revealing', and etc. all these news have caused havoc in malaysia.

malaysia was once a very peaceful country to live in. now...it isn't good at all. no peace at all. i feel so unsafe. even being myself and playing my own role (in other word, mind my own businesses) isn't sufficient to get myself out of trouble. it's hard to say...who knows, right? if someone detonated a bomb and the bomb somehow happened to hit me and i died on the spot...that's the end of my life*touchwood*.what is the purpose to live in darkness????
who can tell me what will happen tomorrow??? at least i can prepare a funeral for myself. i really really really feel so insecure...