my life for the past few days

It had been a long day. I've been busy and unhappy since new semester started. It all started with this accident I've met on the way back to uni. The accident has brought me tonnes of troubles. My car is in the workshop now. I have to depend on my coursemates to fetch me everyday. I hate owing people, especially my coursemates. I felt that I've been so unlucky recently. It all started with my dad who passed away two months ago. Then, I met this not-on-the-right-time accident. Now, I need to depend on my coursemates to fetch me. Calling and asking people everyday whether they are convenient to fetch me. I don't know what's wrong with my life. It's such a tangle, untieable, gigantic mess. Friends in uni aren't really there to support me. Everyone is so busy with their own stuff. They don't even have a sneak of time to stop and have a peek at the people around them. Only tears are always available to console and comfort me. The only hope I have in my life is my family. I swear, if anything happens to my family, I won't live anymore. Even God can't give me any hope now. I'm so languid now, even a word can easily break me into pieces. My friends kept on telling me," Be strong , Sam". I just don't know how. I don't think I can really find anyone who understands me in my course. Everyone competes against each other. Aren't we suppose to help and lift others up? I can only see their self-centeredness, egoness.

I talked on the phone with my dearest sister just now. I could really let go the burden on my shoulders once I heard my sister's voice. She is always so caring and nice. She knows how to console me, cares about me, knowing what I need, advices me and all. If I have to say who understand me the most in this world, it's definitely going to be my sister. It's like, she'll always be there for me.

I went out with my friends last night. We took KTM back. On the way back, I saw one chinese uncle. It wasn't about giving my seat to him. It's about him giving his seat to his daughter. I was so touched by this scene. I remembered my dad. His willingness to sacrifice for this family. He suffered all the good things in his life for us without a mumble. He never let us known even though he had any trouble or problems. A few months back, I met an accident. I gave him a call and he came all the way to KL without any hesitations. Even when all the people around me didn't believe me it was not all my fault for causing the accident, he did. He believed me 100%. He knew that I would be careful and it wasn't really my fault. I was not the one to be blamed. He didn't even blame me or ask how it happened. He only said that it's all ok, as long as you are uninjured, it's ok. He also said that he would settle all the problems and ask me not to worry. He's the coolest guy I've ever met in my life. There won't be anyone as good as him. All my male friends are not even 10% of my dad. Anyone will be insane not to like my dad.

I will be start busying with competition and study very very soon. In fact, I'm busy at those things already. I'm a bit slow at studies and I guess it's better to start early than to prepare for exam on the last minute. There won't be frequent updates in my blog. Folks, you can stop by once a week !!!