another stage of life

went back home last weekend. i had a great time with my mom and sister.
last friday morning, my sister sms-ed me and asked me whether i was free to go home. she told me her boss wasn't around and she could cabut early. since i was tired preparing for my competition and there wasn't much assignment to be completed, so i decided to go home. we left KL around 6 pm on friday and reached home around 9.30 pm. my sister and i bought McD for dinner and we ate it in car on the journey back. i have to admit that it was really fun to have McD on a journey rather than sitting in the shop to finish it. we chatted along the journey back and laughed as i overreacted when i saw holes on the road.
actually, my mom didn't know we were going back. when we reached home, my sister called my mom and told her to open the gate. i could see that she was shocked and yet happy at the same time. yeah, she was all alone at home and always hope we can go back and accompany her. she never say so but i could tell. she is getting along with this life since my dad passed away. she is trying her best to be tough and independent. all i can do is to pray for her and support her.

tomorrow is another new day. more assignments will be given next week and it's the start of busyness and it will prolong till the end of the semester. "i must work harder this semester!", this is what i said to myself whenever a new semester commence and yet my results deteriorate every semester. no, i mustn't let this happen to me again. i want to work as hard as i could when i was in matrics. no more nonsense, no more time-wasting.

competition is just around the corner and we are still half way towards the it. i really cannot expect much this time. i just hope we can win. besides that, there are a lot of conflicts in this group. some of us don't trust others, in another words, we hesitate what each other can really do to contribute to winning this competition. i'm one of the 'some of us'. we are not co-operative enough, meanwhile some others are trying to get the fame coz we are going for national level and not doing anything but 'blowing water' all day long. i really feel so tired being one of the 2 people who contributed the most. sometimes, i really don't know why am i doing this for. my mom advised me to be easy on this and don't expect too much...

hope everything in my life will go well and end well too. meanwhile, i'm worried with getting an offer at an engineering firm to undergo my internship programme. some of my coursemates have already got offers from companies. too much thing to worry about...

currently,
working hard in my studies to achieve better CGPA
struggling hard to find my identity
reading pride and prejudice *this makes me happy*
listening to Only Hope by Switchfoot *this makes me relax*

the 'pride & prejudice' fever !

i am so crazy for pride & prejudice now. my housemate lent me this movie last semester and after i watched it, i started to get crazy over it. the movie was acted by keira knightly, was produced in the year 2002. the movie just got my attention. i don't understand why, it's not adventurous, not funny but it's just nice to me. due to my lack of knowledge in english (biggest reason being their accent), i don't comprehend some of the details in this movie. i try to turn on the subtitles and i found that the subtitles wasn't being written according to the dialogues. so disappointed. it was 1st of January yesterday and i went shopping with a dear friend of mine. i went to popular bookstore which is situated in the shopping complex and to my surprise, i saw a book on pride & prejudice and without any moment of hesitation, i bought this book. i was, well, i am happy that i got this book, now i can know every single detail of the whole story. muahahahaha!
so far, i've read 3 chapters and i'll be sure to read more tonight *cheers*

haven't been blogging since last december. it is now january, wow, just in a blink of eyes. time really flies huh, supersonically. i wasn't really expecting 2008. it's just another year for me. another year of boredomness, especially in studies. can't wait for my graduation in 2009. i don't really have any new year resolution, as for usual every year. well, maybe i don't really want to force myself to achieve or attain something big in my life. i love to day dreaming, planning something big but i don't really like to plan how to achieve it, confusing huh. arghh... i always don't know what i'm thinking about, what i want, and whether or not to do something (even trivial matters). ok, ok, ok, so much for my inner problem.

went shopping yesterday and the day before yesterday, which is 1st of january and 31st of december. thrown myself into the sea of madness i.e. people rushing into the shopping complex to grab some super cheap stuffs. it's the super duper great offer. i also bought something for myself as i thought 'let's join the madness and be part of it!' *lol*
i bought
1. 3 books: pride & prejudice, little women and a tale of two cities
2. 3 shirts: 1 formal shirt and 2 casual shirts
3. a starter(the lamp in my toilet was spoilt and i decided to be the repairwoman myself *hehe*)
4. a big water bottle
i also manage to catch a movie, the golden compass. man, i felt like being cheated. the thriller was so nice and it really made me wanna watch it in cinema. it wasn't that nice after all. everything in the movie was kinda expected by the movie-goers, it was kinda dragging in every scene in the movie. sigh...wasted my money, i should have watched alvin & the chipmunks...

the public universities shouldn't have started the new semester this week. all the lecturers are still on holiday, all the workers are still on holiday. i'm supposed to go to lab to do some preparations for my competition but all the person in charge are not around, i couldn't get my apparatus, couldn't use the lab. it is just a mere waste of time coming back so early.

now i stay at home reading my pride & prejudice and surfing aimlessly on the internet...what a 'great' start for 2008 >_<

asian idol

asian idol is finally over now...i am soooooooooo disappointed with the results. hady won the first asian idol???????? excuse me... i think he's the worst singer of the night, ok. i think every comment paul moss and ken gave him were correct and straight to the point. jacklyn victor should have won the asian idol. she was the best of the best that night. no one can sings better than her.

this is the second song sang by jac



nevertheless, i prefer the version that she sang during malaysian idol. she is already an international star whether or not she win the asian idol. this is the first time i feel proud to be a malaysian, i'm proud because of jac, of course. just love her powerful voice so much. i thought even if jac didn't win, mike could win this but mana tau, it turned up to be the 'cute-sy' hady, haiz...

a light from heaven

this picture was taken in Bali, Indonesia. what a breathtaking view...

yellow colour

YELLOW is the warna diraja Malaysia

YELLOW is the official colour for BERSIH

YELLOW is the official colour for Digi Guy


YELLOW is the Simpsons' skin colour

what does YELLOW means to you????

i hate perverts!!!

I met a pervert a few days ago. No one will ever understand my feelings unless she has met one. Scared, traumatized, insecure, darkness…these are what I felt. I somehow managed to save my ass before the pervert do anything to me. The whole incident was like a nightmare. I don’t want to recall the painful memories of the whole the incident, I hope you guys won’t ask me how it happened. I consider myself very fortunate for I noticed something amiss before anything happened to me. I screamed for my life when I saw the pervert and he ran away before someone came to help. I was sure that pervert was a malay guy. I wasn’t able to stand on my feet at that time.

I was under control after a few moments. That is the moment I started to curse the pervert. I cursed his family for 18 generations, I cursed that a car would run over him when he crossed the street, I cursed that he would be choked to death when he was eating, I cursed that he would be struck by lightning during rainy days, and I cursed that he would be barren forever. I was bad, wasn’t I? Then a verse from the Scripture came to my mind: love your enemies. I knew I was wrong, I have sinned for cursing others…later, I stopped cursing but I started to complain and scold the pervert. Why does this incident happen to me? What the heck? Why? Why? Why? I was on the edge of explosion whenever I think of this.

I put the blame on the society. The society was so corrupted, full of darkness.

I put the blames on those perverts. Why do perverts exist in this world? Those perverts can choose not to be perverts and stop peeping on others. What is so fantastic about peeping on others and becoming a pervert?

I put all the blames on the polices. All they know is just giving summonses to the citizens. All they know is just having road blocks. All they know is just pretending to be concerned about the society while in reality, they aren’t that concern after all. Aren’t we supposed to be committed to what we do once we take up the responsibilities?

The feeling of helplessness is really unbearable and uncomfortable.

a day out

i went out to Mid Valley today. i reached there around 12 p.m. i went to U2, G2000, topman shop, metrojaya, People's and Pdi to look for formal shirt as a birthday present for my beloved brother. found something nice though. after that, i went to mph bookstore. wanted to buy books on self-motivation but i could not made up my mind so i didn't buy anything. i was supposed to meet KF at 3 p.m. but he reached early and so we met at 1 p.m.

after that, we went to buy movie tickets. we watched bee movie. it was an entertaining, hilarious, fun, cute and nice movie.

this is barry, the main character in this movie. cute and young...

this was the graduation of the bee class at 9.15 a.m. sitting beside barry was his friend, Adam.
they spent 3 days for primary school, 3 days for high school and 3 days for college and boom...that was their graduation. it was a bit exaggerating.

this is vanessa, a florist. barry kinda fell in love with her. actually vanessa saved barry from being killed by Ken (vanessa's friend). bees were forbidden to talk to human. in order to express his gratitude towards vanessa, barry started to talk with vanessa.

from left was Adam, barry's dad, barry's mom and barry's uncle, uncle carl. uncle carl was dating a cricket. barry's dad worked as a stirrer in the Hexagon and he was extremely proud with his job. *lol*

these were the jocks. they worked outside the bee hive, Hexagon to collect nectar and do some pollination work.

later barry found out that the human beings eat honey and he considered it as stealing from the bee colony. bees use honey as their shampoo, hair gel, food, everything single thing! he was extremely upset and filed a suit against the human beings. the trial of the century, as it was defined in the movie *lol*

this is the attorney representing the humans, mr mongomery. he's a bad ass !

the cute-sy barry

after we got the tickets, we went to sushi king for lunch ! KF insisted to treat me sushi but i felt paiseh and he told me to pay the movie tickets in return. i was so happy that someone treated me sushi. i LOVE sushi. we had set meals and some sushi ~ fresh salmon from the ocean and baby octopus. KF said the octopus were just babies and sudah kena tangkap. kelian...lol. then we sat and chatted for a while. we went to guitar shop as well. KF, you are really a guitar freak ! i have only one, and you have 4 ! later, we went to movie and later shop a while before we got back. on the way back, a promoter gave me a perfume stick and i thought i would be a good idea to give my brother a perfume rather than a shirt. pening pening...

i took ktm back. in ktm, i gave my seat to an old uncle. i feel so proud of myself yet happy at the same time for being able to help. i am a good girl after all =)

Whoopi Goldberg said~~~

We're here for a reason.
I believe a bit of the reason is to throw little torches out to lead people through the dark

what have i done so far??

holidays kinda started on monday, precisely at 2.30 p.m. holidays commenced 'officially' once i finished my last paper. syok sendiri...so basically, yesterday was my second day of holidays. i woke up as early as 7.30 a.m. i intended to sleep until noon so i can have brunch (2 meals altogether so i need not to think what to eat and save all the time travelling, chewing and biting). so, there i was. after daily prayer, i started to surf the net. read others blog, watched youtube, chatted with my friends. in the afternoon, i intived 2 of my friends for McD coz i was seriously and pathetically craving for McD. one of my friends kinda created a scene at McD and three of us laughed as if we were crazy.
hui san, stacey and i went to McD together.

part of the conversation:
me: you order first la...i'm still thinking what to eat
hui san: okok. emm...saya nak 2 banana pie dan 1 teh o ais limau
me: (i stared at her, wide my eyes wide open) teh o ais limau??? (mamak ar???)
cashier: ok...har? teh o ais limau?? iced lemon tea ar???
hui san: eh !! ya ya, iced lemon tea
stacey and i laughed and hui san laughed along. i was like...walao eh...teh o ais limau...=.=

we ate and chatted for almost an hour and then we went back.

as i was driving back, i saw one black garbage bag by the roadside. i thought i saw something inside, i meant it contained something. then the thought of murdered bodies kept inside garbage bag and dumped at the roadsides came to my mind. i was thinking, serious ka? then i thought of nurin's case...i had goose bump all over my body. i quickly focused back on the road. i am not that adventurous and i don't have any detective-born-talent for that kinda stuff. i guess i was bored and started to think of something nonsense.

later in the evening, i went out again to help my friend with her stuff. one of the hostel in ukm wants the students to clear up all their stuffs during the semester break due to some reasons. actually, the principle wants to rent all the rooms out during the semester break, so adsurb. my friend has no place to put her stuffs, so i offered her my help. after that, we ate our dinner at sungai chua. from my house, i was supposed to turn left, left and right at 3 junctions. i turned left, left, left instead and ended up i went through the wrong road. then my instinct told me i was on the wrong track and with my 'wits' and 'great sense for directions', i got back onto the right track again. (actually i suck at directionz)

i wanted to have pork noodles but it was closed and we ended up eating curry. curry was just nice for a cold weather. it was drizzling outside...we had a great time having meals together. i found that we have the same interest and things and people that we dislike. finally, i found someone who could really understand me. she knows what i like and what i dislike(both people, food and surroundings). we have exactly the same opinions and ways of thinking. i am truly grateful to have her...

at night, i did some serious stuff, not to be revealed until the day arrives...hehe.

recently, i visited a blog by a photographer. i am amazed at his techniques on shooting those nice pictures. he traveled so many places and i am jealous of him. i wish i could do something like what he has done and not studying engineering, some serious stuff. commit a small mistake and you'll blow the factory to debris. here's the link
Rick Wezenaar Photography

i read papers online an hour ago and i found that the government has a plan on building canal city that costs rm 3 billion, the sole reason is to store water for consumption in selangor. i don't know whether it's a good idea or another wan kat project. so far, most of them have been disappointing... enough for projects by govenrment. i don't want get my ass caught and kept in prison.

getting ready for a 'quest' to MV...

okra

friend: do you like okra?
me: okra? what's that?
friend: okra...as in lady's fingers...
me: oh, really...(stupified expression + paiseh)

i didn't know lady's finger is also called okra. so embarassing !!!

this is an okra.

this is okra flowers. hey ! okra flowers, you are some kinda 'hot chicks' huh? *lol*

still a picture of okra...