another stage of life

went back home last weekend. i had a great time with my mom and sister.
last friday morning, my sister sms-ed me and asked me whether i was free to go home. she told me her boss wasn't around and she could cabut early. since i was tired preparing for my competition and there wasn't much assignment to be completed, so i decided to go home. we left KL around 6 pm on friday and reached home around 9.30 pm. my sister and i bought McD for dinner and we ate it in car on the journey back. i have to admit that it was really fun to have McD on a journey rather than sitting in the shop to finish it. we chatted along the journey back and laughed as i overreacted when i saw holes on the road.
actually, my mom didn't know we were going back. when we reached home, my sister called my mom and told her to open the gate. i could see that she was shocked and yet happy at the same time. yeah, she was all alone at home and always hope we can go back and accompany her. she never say so but i could tell. she is getting along with this life since my dad passed away. she is trying her best to be tough and independent. all i can do is to pray for her and support her.

tomorrow is another new day. more assignments will be given next week and it's the start of busyness and it will prolong till the end of the semester. "i must work harder this semester!", this is what i said to myself whenever a new semester commence and yet my results deteriorate every semester. no, i mustn't let this happen to me again. i want to work as hard as i could when i was in matrics. no more nonsense, no more time-wasting.

competition is just around the corner and we are still half way towards the it. i really cannot expect much this time. i just hope we can win. besides that, there are a lot of conflicts in this group. some of us don't trust others, in another words, we hesitate what each other can really do to contribute to winning this competition. i'm one of the 'some of us'. we are not co-operative enough, meanwhile some others are trying to get the fame coz we are going for national level and not doing anything but 'blowing water' all day long. i really feel so tired being one of the 2 people who contributed the most. sometimes, i really don't know why am i doing this for. my mom advised me to be easy on this and don't expect too much...

hope everything in my life will go well and end well too. meanwhile, i'm worried with getting an offer at an engineering firm to undergo my internship programme. some of my coursemates have already got offers from companies. too much thing to worry about...

currently,
working hard in my studies to achieve better CGPA
struggling hard to find my identity
reading pride and prejudice *this makes me happy*
listening to Only Hope by Switchfoot *this makes me relax*