fish and its bones

i went back to Johor yesterday and just came back today. i had only been in my hometown for less than 24 hours. what the...[-.-''']

anyway, it was the first time i went back with my brother ONLY. well, the journey was quite pleasant. as per usual, my brother would jam songs throughout the whole journey. nothing was more interesting than seeing him performed stunts i.e. overtook all the car that slowed him down. i only realised that Honda City has a function called '7 speed mode' yesterday. was i a jakun? anyway...i had a few conversation with my brother. it felt odd because my brother wasn't a person that would initiate conversation with us, his family, especially when he grew older. there was a moment where he asked me something and i felt embarrassed.

bro: when are you graduating?
me: may, next year lo
bro: as what? master ar?
me: *surprised* no lah! degree nia
bro: how's results? first class?
me: *embarrassed* no la, second upper nia

i was a straight A students all the while, except for SPM. i realised that i was fading away, especially in studies lately. didn't manage to score well, didn't have any motivation to study. so pathetic!

anyway, i still have another one semester left. i tell myself, i will play hard and study hard. after all, this is the last 5 months to be an undergrad. haha. looking back at 2008, i realise that time flies supersonically. pheww...

as per usual, i tapao bento that my mom made for me. my mom usually prepares me bento when i go back to KL. this time, i had egg and fish, what a healthy meal! when i was eating the fish, i thought of my dad. my dad would always remove bone from the flesh of the fish whenever my mom cooked fish at home. we i.e. my siblings and i would eat the boneless flesh of the fish while my dad busied himself extracting the bones. by the time we had done eating, to leave the table, my dad only ate one bite of rice from his rice bowl. i miss those days...my mom also extracted bones from the fish these days, for me, ONLY. (ps: to my siblings, she would act as if: jaga yourself lar)*hehe* but the feeling was not the same. i really miss my dad but i do love my mom too. sigh, just miss those day when my dad was still around. he was a very cool and quiet person, but somehow, his presence gave me a reason to stay at home, and feel the warmth of a happy and complete family.

my heart would go sad whenever i see any uncles wondering aimlessly on the streets or families going outing with their DADs. i am jealous. although everyone in the family grows stronger and tougher, i still feel the lost that cannot be replaced. this year will be the second year to celebrate CNY without my dad. every year, my dad would grill bak gua for us, at his friend's shop. we would eat as much as we could. i tell you, the bak gua he grilled was the best in the world. he was very skilful in grilling bak gua back then. the bak gua was perfectly grilled yet not charred. ever since he passed away, i have been eating less bak gua and chocolate. he had been feeding us with chocolate since we were young and we ended up loving chocolate so much!

i still miss my dad, i still hope that he can be here, to celebrate CNY with us. i still want to celebrate even a small bliss in everyday of my life with my precious daddy...
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Kek sei!!!!

today is supposed to be a merry and happy day coz it's Christmas, the day where Jesus Christ was born. i went to church for morning service and went back after lunch. received a few presents =)

everything went well for the whole day until when i was on my way back. i encountered a few stupid drivers who couldn't drive well on the road.

#1 Old Honda
there was this malay uncle driving an old, brown-coloured honda. the uncle was very revengeful. the uncle was trying to change to the inner lane as the most left outer lane was going to end after about 50 m. i (red-coloured car) was in front and more to the inner lane compare to the old Honda. thus, it's logical for me to change to the inner lane first. BTW, i was going at a higher speed as well, so, it's also logical for me to change to the inner lane first. suddenly, this old uncle gave me a loud and long honk. i was like, what the fart! what's wrong with this old uncle. he memang tak syiok me for i get to change to the inner lane before him. so, yeah, he honked me. bloody fool!

so, ok. i got to change to the inner lane first. since i was at the inner lane, it's normal to speed off, in order to avoid slowing down others oncoming cars. i would occasionally look at the rear mirror, to see the cars behind. i noticed that i had sped off quite fast and left the old Honda behind, about 50 to 100 m away from my car. this old Honda memang tak syiok me, he sped on and got closer to my car.

by that time, he was on the inner lane. he memang tak syiok me, i tell you. suddenly, out of my surprise, he...
he tried to startled me by suddenly drove onto my lane. his car and mine were a about a few inches away. WHAT THE FART! i was driving peacefully on my lane and he purposely sped on just to startle me. what more, i immediately avoid his car by turning slightly to the left side but still remain on the same lane.


luckily, there was no car behind! and the stupid old uncle sped on and got in front of me and on the same lane as me! WHAT THE STUPID FART!
after he got in front of my car, he stepped on his brake and reduced his speed to about 40 km/hr. i was at that time at about 80 km/hr. what more, i nearly hit him and i immediately stepped on my brake.

realizing the situation, i immediately gave him a long and loud honk for 2 times. i was so angry. i was furious, to be exact. i couldn't remember whether i cursed him. without hesitating, i changed to the inner lane and sped off to leave his car behind. then, he suddenly slow down and made a turn on the left. i was like, what that fart was wrong with this old uncle.

ps: actually, i wanted to use 'hag' to call this uncle, but 'hag' is only used for evil-looking old woman. if anyone knows any words i can use to describe him in a nasty way, please leave me a comment. i'm serious!

#2 Nissan
when i was in Kajang town and on the way back to my house in fasa 3, i encountered another car, a stupid one. it was a green-coloured Nissan. he was slow and was scared to make any move. i was behind his car. he remained stationary for a few moments despite there were a few chances that he could take to move on. FYI, Kajang is kinda jam most of the time. i was furious and still terkejut because of the old Honda just now. man! this Nissan really got me on my nerves! he kept making me to step on my brake for a few times because he was reluctant or too timid to make a move. sigh!

#3 Kenari
towards approaching fasa 4, there was another car, a silver-coloured Kelisa. this time, it was a reckless car.
because the most left outer lane was going to end soon, so this Kelisa changed to the right inner lane. it was logical to do that also lar. i didn't blame the Kelisa. i was that time driving at 80 km/hr. after the Kelisa managed to change to the inner lane and got in front of me, the driver didn't speed on and drove at 30 km/hr. i was like, what the fart, i made an emergency brake and all the thing dropped off from the passenger seat. i gave that car a honk. BTW, the Kelisa didn't give any signal to move to the right when it was going to change to the inner lane but i knew what it was going to do at that time.

sigh! i wonder how people drive nowadays.
similarity in these 3 cases:

1. they were uncles
2. they were malays
3. they were reckless
4. they were stupid

i decided to stay at home for the whole day. i knew, it wasn't a good day for me =(
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Christmas present on MSN

my friend, kit how, sent me this drawing. he drew it on MSN
so colourful and pretty
Sammy is happy =)

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results!

result for last semester is finally out!

i was terrified before this. i did badly in Chemical Process Safety subject. i even dream that i was going to fail that subject. but thank God! prayers really work eh! =) banzai to the Lord!

my latest result is better than the previous one. i am very happy about it. i'm still very happy =)
my result is quite average if compare to others, but i am satisfied. after all, i'm competing with myself, not others. who cares if others got a lot better than me. but i wish them well and a lot of congrats to them as well.

i cried profusely the moment i saw my result on the computer screen. i couldn't believe my eyes. i just hoped not to fail any subjects but my hope not only came true. my result was better than what i've expected. my tears were tears of joy. joy that couldn't be described using any words ever existed in this world. not even Jane Austen could describe my feelings.

ps: is this the defining moments i have mentioned in the previous post? still waiting...

ah...i feel so relieved. it gives me more motivation to do better next semester, which is the 8th semester, my last semester as a lame and lauya Chemical Engineering undergrad. am doing my thesis and i hope to finish it as soon as possible. will be doing viscosity test tomorrow. i just hope that KGM will have similar characteristics as gelatin.

one more day to Christmas. yay!

"We wish you a Merry Christmas
We wish you a Merry Christmas
We wish you a Merry Christmas
And a happy new year"

Snoopy wants to have a Merry Christmas, so is Sammy =)

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Jesus said~~~

...a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.

adapted from Luke 12:15
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check this out! this guy is super slut and funny
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2008

i wonder, what has the police been doing all these time? yesterday, after i went yum cha with seen, i saw a bunch of mat rempit gangstering the street. not just a bunch. almost 3 to 4 groups of mat rempit on different streets. i was so scared but luckily, i was safe. luckily there were a few other cars on the road. i almost pee in my pants and i kept on uttering words of prayer to God. luckily, i had to turn into roads with a lot of bumps to get back home. logically and philosophically thinking, mat rempit would avoid bumpy and slopy roads as these roads couldn't give them the oomph to rempit on. i always hated bumps but for once in my life, i actually loved bumps.

recently, my friend also encountered mat rempit on her way back home where a bunch of mat rempit surrounded her car. her experience was more terrifying than mine. she quickly drove to the nearest police station and asked for help from the police. she told me the whole scenario where mat rempit followed her car, in front, left, right and behind her car. the police told her that, normally, there would be no mat rempit on weekdays and they couldn't escort or put up road blocks on the streets, for further actions. what the fart! what's wrong with the police? i thought one of their responsibilities was to protect us. it is because of their couldn't-be-bothered-attitude that makes those mat rempit getting more and more outrageous. i know, polices are also humans and they have their own family to take care of. but they had made their vow, to take up the responsibility, to be dedicated, to try their best to be what a police should be/do.

i'm soooo speechless. sigh. double sigh. triple sigh. enough with the police. eventually, it would end up with lots of disappointments when it comes to them.

christmas is coming soon, very soon. every year, i would spend my christmas in my hometown. but this is the first time i'll be spending christmas in KL. have some plans in hands but we'll see. hope i can have a nice and enjoyable christmas this year.

this year almost comes to the end and i realise that 2008 is such a short year for me. haven't really done much. haven't really experienced much. i couldn't even recall what has happened throughout the year. but deep inside my heart, i know that, family is the most important of all. i found a few close friends that i can trust and share problems with. i had done my internship and experienced what it was like to work in the society. i became more matured and thought deeply most of the time. i lost my car. i experienced the most bias situation that a person could experience. i saw how a person could be so fake and yet it was the most natural side of that person that was hidden deep in that person's heart.

2008 is plain yet intriguing. i feel that something big is going to happen in my life. the most determining, the most anticipated moment in my life is going to happen soon. i don't know what is it but i know i want it very much. weird la...haha.
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L. D. Stamp said~~~

those that survive are stalwart, rugged men

cut cut cut

The economy is getting worse each day. By the time i grad, i think the economy will be even worse. i should have taken a 3-year-course and grad by this year. if i were to take a 3-year-course, i would have secured myself a good job now. why on earth i go and study chemical engineering, stupid me. i still can complain even i'm on the edge of completing the course, stupid me. ok, enough with the complaining.

since the prices of all good hike up, and my income, which is ptptn loan given to me each semester still remain the same, i really need to cut down on my expenses. luckily the petrol price is slurping down, i mean decreasing, it's a big help of hand in this period of economy downturn *4 thumbs up (including the 2 on my feet)*
i have thought of some useful ways to cut down on everything i can cut down.

1. cut down on my food.
my main food will be oat and wholemeal bread from now on. goodbye to rice. don't pity me, i like eating oat and wholemeal bread. plus, the rice i can get here is white rice. my mom has cultivated healthy lifestyle for quite some time. the whole family has been eating brown rice and i'm not so into white rice anymore. so, take the advantage from this economy downturn and cultivate healthy lifestyle so that you can live a longer life. ps: live long enough to meet another economy downturn :D

2. cut down on toiletries.
normally the amount of shampoo i use is about the size of a 20 cents. now i cut it down to 10 cents. while the amount of body shampoo i use is about the size of a 50 cents(X2). now i cut it down to 50 cents(X1). cut down on toothpaste from the length of the brush to half the length of the brush. turn off water pipe while soaping.

3. cut down on electricity.
put lappie on standby mode when i go to bath or to store, if i don't wana shut it down. turn off fan and light when i'm not using it.

4. cut down on petrol.
i try to avoid travelling unnecessarily. stay at home and read books better la. my wallet will go thin whenever i step out of the house. sigh...i'm a very broke student.

i want to clarify something. i'm saving not being stingy :D
enough with the cutting down, or else, i will end up cutting myself into half.
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离别是为了走更远的路

hey guys.
sorry for not updating for such a long time. i went back to my hometown where internet was less accessible. but now i'm back and i'm back for more action. waaachaaaaa!!!
now, i have a record of driving alone for almost 400 km, muahahhaha. now, who say girls are lousy drivers?

people always say: 休息是为了走更远的路
but i say: 离别是为了走更远的路
it was kinda sad to be away from my mom after about a month at home.
but i have to continue my life, to pursue and put a full stop (as perfect as possible) to end my studies. although i will be sad for quite some time, it's worth it.
i will be graduating in less than 6 months from now. i always thought i wanted this very much but i'm not exactly that happy right now. thinking of having to work on weekdays for the whole year makes me sick. anyway, it can't be that bad right? i believe God has a good plan for everyone.

will go to fac tomorrow to really start doing lab for my thesis. been wasting a lot of time doing nothing for my thesis. i heard that some even go back to fac on weekends to do their lab. walao, so hardworking. shame on me for being so lazy.

finally, i had finished reading a novel, 'pride and prejudice' after a few attempts to read it since last year, if i'm not mistaken. the novel was great and not disappointing at all. my last fiction book was the one written by John Grisham.

tomorrow will be a long day. need to try-and-error on using the viscosity tester. hope i can master all the knowledge by myself within a day. good luck to me. wanna watch my fave anime, bleach before continue reading some journals. later...

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