stressful

have been calculating the heat integration for my project since before i came back for holiday. i still can't get the pinch temperature no matter how i modified the source temperature, target temperature, min temperature, and the CP value. i've tried inside out and outside in, i still cannot get the pinch temperature. i'm going berserk soon enough. feel like giving up, but i can't. or else, a few people will throw me some mean words. everyone knows what a girl can do, especially b*tch. ok la, i need to stop complaining. really stop!

was so stressful this afternoon. i gave my mom a cold shoulder. i felt so remorseful about my attitude. so immature. cannot get my problem solved and treat others badly. really need to change this bad side of me.

i always wonder, why am i so stewpid. why my brain cannot function well? why can't i think from another angle and become another albert einstein? why can't i create newton's 4th law and name it as sammy's law? haih...i wasn't born as a genius, but was i born as an idiot????
when i asked my mom why wasn't i born as a genius, she said genius always die at young age.
haih...was i lucky or unlucky?

i hope i can win 4D and then i can stop doing anything. just eat, sleep, shop and travel, until the day i die.

sometimes i just wonder, why should i work so hard. as if i can get anything from my diligentness.

haih, gotta continue my work lieu...

Oil prices sink already

OI !!!!!!!!
PAK LAH,

OIL PRICE SUDAH JATUH LAH.

WHEN YOU WANNA DECREASE THE OIL PRICE IN MALAYSIA.

MAKE EMPTY PROMISES ONLY.

I'M SOOOOOO DISAPPOINTED!

MAD TO BE A MALAYSIAN, NOT CRAZY MAD BUT ANGRY MAD!

the news on oil prices sink is according to AFP


PPS: \_/\_/\_/ 3 glasses of icy cold water also cannot cool down my anger!

Happy Mooncake Festival

no money to buy Haagen Dazs for y'all
nah, virtual Haagen Dazs mooncake
most cordially from Sammy *peace*

my precious collection

my anime collection...hehe^^

1. the law of ueki

2. soul eater

3. shakugan-no-shana

4. saiunkoku monogatari

5. nodame cantabile

6. love hina

7. Koutetsu sangokushi

8. kiba

9. kekkaishi

10. inuyasha

11. GTO

12. D-gray man

13. death note

14. D.C. da capo

15. blood+

16. bleach

17. fate/stay night

18. ah my goddess

stress at maximum level

what the heck!

i'm super stressful.

i don't know what i want.

i don't know what i need.

i don't know who to talk to.

i've got tonnes of works to be done but i don't feel like doing any.

i wanna relax myself and so i watched anime. but i couldn't concentrate on it.

i wanna sleep but i feel guilty for sleeping too much.

i wanna bite something to de-stress but my stomach is constantly on a full condition and i can't eat to de-stress.

i wanna listen to music but when i turn it on, i couldn't concentrate on my works.

i wanna talk to someone but i don't know who.

i wanna decide on which car to buy but i'm afraid i'll regret in the future.

argghhhhh...i feel PATHETIC !!!

what do i WANT???!!!

act cool

my sister and i were trying to act cool...too many free time to waste...hehe

first attempt to act cool

second attempt to act cool

are we as cool as them??
LOL

another cloudy day

after all, i'm still alone.

this feeling is so unbearable and it hits me like a meteor.

going back to becoming an isolated person again...

sammy is very pitiful !

steamboat aftermath

it looks soooo un-appetizing but i still love steamboat.
i'm the steamboat addict of the year....muahahhaha
leftover kaki udang...anyone???

undecided

OR

?

I'm so undecided....
any comments from anyone???

freaking post

i'm freaking stressed recently. i can get so motivated this second and be so unmotivated the next consecutive second. i don't know what has happened to me. i'm freaking pissed off with myself. being so unstable, so unpredictable and so uncontrollable makes me hate my life more. sometimes, i really have no idea what i am doing now. although i'm towards the end of my 4-year-course, i feel so regret with my choice to study this course in UKM in the first place. if i were rich, i wouldn't be here wasting my time and sacrificing my 4.00 that i've obtained from matrics. really don't understand myself and my decision at all.

i was living in my own world for almost a month i.e. haven't been reading the papers for almost a month. got to know that some former senator namely Ahmad Ismail criticise or more precisely expressed (his opinion) that Chinese are only imigrants in malaysia. freaking angry mad at him. who the heck is him to form this statement. he also got his salaries from the nations. we pay the tax and the tax are used to pay some of the scumbags like him. if it weren't our money, he will be eating excretta by now. don't be so loud when you need to depends on other to survive. got a penthouse already, still wants to built another bungalow. better donate to those orphanage or beggars la. the government always encourage us to spend wisely, why don't the government encourage their servant to spend wisely. and no, i don't see that the government is trying hard to unite the nation, not a bit at all. always campaining for integration among the malaysians, WASTE THE NATION'S MONEY. this is something you do on the surface, not thoroughly. if the government really wants us to be united, please at least do something with increasing our life status or cutting the living cost. so great at campaining yet so lousy at making our life easier.

i read another news: malaysia bid for this coming paralympic games to be held here. please don't. always with the reason to increase the number of tourists to visit malaysia. malaysia can't even provide a decent facilities for us, not to mention the disable. try to improve before you beautify. for example, my fac building has been renovated recently. trying so hard to beautify and make it looks like a first class hotel lobby. please improve on the education standard and don't spend money on those unimportant stuff. people always say don't judge a book by its cover, why not use it in this situation. freaking don't understand their thinking at all. oh, i'm so out of topic...i lost my interest to complain =.='''

freaking mad with the thief or thieves who stole my car. making my life so miserable. need to report to the police, whom i detest and to the insurance company so that i may claim money for my lost. arghh...freaking stupid thief. screw them thousand times also cannot cool down my anger.

freaking don't understand my housemates. am i too stupid or something.

1. the water tank was malfunctioning. they called the plumber and they didn't let me know. then suddenly, i saw a guy in my house, i was shocked for a while. they themselves don't like a guy to suddenly appear in the house, why la they want other people to feel that way. ok la, who am i chek, need to inform me first meh...i know they will claim the money from owner, but please at least let me know what's happening. don't give me any info at all, in the end, i'll be blame for not being concern with the things in house.
2. switch off the modem in the day and not at night. if you wanna switch off the modem, switch off at night la, when everyone is sleeping. mana ada orang switch off in the noon, when everyone is using, ok la, maybe not everyone. siao one ar. freaking piss off. somemore, in the noon, it is so bright right, switch ON the light but no one is using. in the night, switch OFF the light and you can't even see a finger. i help switch off light in the day and on the light at night and people claim me wasting their electricity. am i the freak or they are being the freaky freak? freaking don't understand. maybe there's some problem with my brain kut. i always wanted to say this when people said that i waste their electricity: when you walk across the floor, you generate dust, please don't walk at all, so that i don't need to clean so much.

that's all with complaining in the house. i know, i sound like a bitch, and i don't like to be one. i won't be provoked if no one provokes me.

and yeah, the thief not only stole those things i mentioned in the previous post, he or she also stole my newly bought cardigan and 2 umbrellas...

ella ella ella eh eh eh eh
underneath my umbrella...

my car got stolen- Day 5

it has been 5 days since my car got stolen. everything has come to a peaceful state, at least for now. there were quite some stuffs in my car and those things got stolen along with the car by the thief.

list of things that got stolen:

1. 2 calculators
2. 2 thumb drives
3. 2 teddy bears
4. sunglasses
5. some classical cassettes
   
6. bangi house key and johor house key
7. a pair of slippers
8. a pair of black shoes
9. a pair of sport shoes
10. lab coat
11. 2 text books
12. a file and all my notes
13. Bro's water bottle
14. everything a person would have in her/his pencil case

i bought and borrowed some of those stolen things from my coursemates.
thank God that i've settled my transportation problem. God has been blessing me all these while.

my family have been really supportive all these while. my sister always said things happen for a reason and i believe so.
my friends and some of my coursemates have expressed their concerns to me. i'm glad to have them to be with me in this almost unbearable period. anyhow, it has happened and i can blame no one or feel sad about this unwanted and unpredictable incident. sometimes, i still hope that my car will come back to me but i know it is impossible. even if the police found the car, i would sell it as it wasn't as original as it used to be anymore.

life can be so unpredictable. life can be so unexpected. life can be so mysterious. life can be so fun yet tiresome.

another exam is coming and there are so many things to be completed in my design project and thesis. i just couldn't waste my time living in the past or sadness or remorse. what is done cannot be undone. what is lost cannot be retrieved.