Because of you
I cried 24 hours non-stop for 4 days
Because of you
I lost 7 kg in 3 days
Because of you
I feel compel to take care of the ones I loved
Because of you
I promise to myself to be a decent person
Because of you
I’ve learnt to be tactful in everything I do
Because of you
Nothing is more important than you
I could still feel your presence
I could still feel the warmth of your embrace
I miss you so….
May 30, 2007
May 29, 2007
Marianne Williamson said~~
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frighten us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Adapted from Stephen R. Covey's The 8th habit, From Effectiveness to Greatness
Adapted from Stephen R. Covey's The 8th habit, From Effectiveness to Greatness
May 24, 2007
National service
Is it wise to execute the national service programme in our country?
Well, for me, I think it’s a total waste. Reconsider the cost needed to support all the activities in the programme, I think it’s not a necessity. Money is needed for trainees’ uniforms, foods, activity sites, medical fees, tools for training and etc. Where does all those money come from? Isn’t it the nation’s money? Why waste those money?
Let’s not mention about they money wasted. How about the quality of the trainees being trained in this programme? The programme is not even military-oriented. It means, not even one person graduated from this programme is suitable for war when the country is in danger.
Not forgetting about some widespread rumours saying some bad things about the programme.
Sigh, why doesn’t the government come up with some useful ideas that will bring benefits to the country?
Well, for me, I think it’s a total waste. Reconsider the cost needed to support all the activities in the programme, I think it’s not a necessity. Money is needed for trainees’ uniforms, foods, activity sites, medical fees, tools for training and etc. Where does all those money come from? Isn’t it the nation’s money? Why waste those money?
Let’s not mention about they money wasted. How about the quality of the trainees being trained in this programme? The programme is not even military-oriented. It means, not even one person graduated from this programme is suitable for war when the country is in danger.
Not forgetting about some widespread rumours saying some bad things about the programme.
Sigh, why doesn’t the government come up with some useful ideas that will bring benefits to the country?
I miss you…
Life. What is life all about? What’s the purpose of living on this earth? What’s the point of working so hard in this life? What’s the significance of perseverance to achieve something big in this life? Why do we have to work hard and study hard? Someday soon, we will leave the earth. No matter how hard we keep this life, we will still lose it someday. No matter how hard we work, how hard we study, we cannot bring all of these together with us when we leave the earth. So why, why do we take all of these seriously in our lives? What is it that we are looking for in this life? Something we can boast about? Something to be proud of? Something to show off to others? This life really perplexes me. I still couldn’t find the meaning of this life no matter how hard I’ve tried. Life is so vague. I still couldn’t get the big picture of it no matter how hard I’ve seek.
I guess losing someone close to me recently makes me think more about this life. I’ve lost him, for eternity. He will never come back to me again. I miss him a lot lately. I wanted to talk to him but I couldn’t. Losing him really give a tremendous impact on my life. Not only me, but also to the people around me. I’ll do anything to get him back in my life but I know there’s nothing I can do. I was such a fool who didn’t know how to cherish him while he’s still around. I was such an idiot to make him worried about me while he’s around. I am such a pain. God, why are You so cruel? You took him away from me. You didn’t even give me a chance to say goodbye. You didn’t even give me a chance to pay him back for all the good deeds he did to me. You didn’t even give him a chance to say goodbye. He had just started to enjoy his life and You just took him away without a warning. You said You have a perfect plan for everyone but is this what You called a perfect plan for him? This is so absurd. Why are You so cruel? You promised to give me a joyful life but do I have now? Only pain, in my heart. My heart aches whenever I think of him.
You were the one to support me when everyone else turned their back against me. You were the first one to come to me whenever I faced problems. You worked hard for me, to give me a comfortable life and to give me the best in not just anything, but everything in my life. You were the one to console me whenever I was depressed. You are everything in my life. I still want you in my life. I am so regret for I didn’t obey you fully. I was so stupid for I did not comprehend what you did in the past.
Nothing can replace you in my life. You are the most important person in my life. You are gone, for eternity and I will miss you forever…
I guess losing someone close to me recently makes me think more about this life. I’ve lost him, for eternity. He will never come back to me again. I miss him a lot lately. I wanted to talk to him but I couldn’t. Losing him really give a tremendous impact on my life. Not only me, but also to the people around me. I’ll do anything to get him back in my life but I know there’s nothing I can do. I was such a fool who didn’t know how to cherish him while he’s still around. I was such an idiot to make him worried about me while he’s around. I am such a pain. God, why are You so cruel? You took him away from me. You didn’t even give me a chance to say goodbye. You didn’t even give me a chance to pay him back for all the good deeds he did to me. You didn’t even give him a chance to say goodbye. He had just started to enjoy his life and You just took him away without a warning. You said You have a perfect plan for everyone but is this what You called a perfect plan for him? This is so absurd. Why are You so cruel? You promised to give me a joyful life but do I have now? Only pain, in my heart. My heart aches whenever I think of him.
You were the one to support me when everyone else turned their back against me. You were the first one to come to me whenever I faced problems. You worked hard for me, to give me a comfortable life and to give me the best in not just anything, but everything in my life. You were the one to console me whenever I was depressed. You are everything in my life. I still want you in my life. I am so regret for I didn’t obey you fully. I was so stupid for I did not comprehend what you did in the past.
Nothing can replace you in my life. You are the most important person in my life. You are gone, for eternity and I will miss you forever…
May 5, 2007
it's holiday again
Dear oh dear. Time flies supersonically. Another semester has ended with the commence of this holiday. It's the end of my second year in uni, and i'll be graduating two years later. Don't mention about graduation yet, let's just look forward to it.
Sigh, two years has passed and i found that i really learn nothing much in uni, plus, i didn't really enjoy my uni life in these two years. There're only disappointments so far. Disappointed with the people in my course, the lecturers, some self-centered housemates and the system in this country. Life is not easy. Rumours are everywhere no matter what you've done, good or bad. Even when you've done something good, some people will twist the truth and what you've done would sound so bad. Sigh, can't be helped, everyone is given a mouth and they can say whatever they want. Life gets even tougher especially when you need to live life according to rules and taking people's order. You'll never satisfy people around you no matter what you've done. This is what you called life.
Anyway, the happiest thing in my uni life is to get to know 2 good housemates, phing may and dom. They are my closest friend in uni. Always got my back and supporting me, always help me whenever i have dilemma. i'm truly grateful to have them in my life. Another happy thing during my uni life is to get a best friend, gal in my hometown. we just got closer after i came to uni. Three close friends in my life so far. I have phobia when getting a close friend. I still can remember the feeling of being betrayed by a close friend, my heart really ache whenever i thought of it.
I'm gonna work real hard this holiday. There's no other reason no to work hard. Really can't wait to really work so that i can earn and give back to my parents. They had endure loads of hardship when they were young to give three of us, their offsprings a good life. It's such a shameful thing to ask money from them anymore. They have gone through a lot and i just hope to make them glad and give them a good life.
looking forward to this holiday. hope that i can get good results this time.
Sigh, two years has passed and i found that i really learn nothing much in uni, plus, i didn't really enjoy my uni life in these two years. There're only disappointments so far. Disappointed with the people in my course, the lecturers, some self-centered housemates and the system in this country. Life is not easy. Rumours are everywhere no matter what you've done, good or bad. Even when you've done something good, some people will twist the truth and what you've done would sound so bad. Sigh, can't be helped, everyone is given a mouth and they can say whatever they want. Life gets even tougher especially when you need to live life according to rules and taking people's order. You'll never satisfy people around you no matter what you've done. This is what you called life.
Anyway, the happiest thing in my uni life is to get to know 2 good housemates, phing may and dom. They are my closest friend in uni. Always got my back and supporting me, always help me whenever i have dilemma. i'm truly grateful to have them in my life. Another happy thing during my uni life is to get a best friend, gal in my hometown. we just got closer after i came to uni. Three close friends in my life so far. I have phobia when getting a close friend. I still can remember the feeling of being betrayed by a close friend, my heart really ache whenever i thought of it.
I'm gonna work real hard this holiday. There's no other reason no to work hard. Really can't wait to really work so that i can earn and give back to my parents. They had endure loads of hardship when they were young to give three of us, their offsprings a good life. It's such a shameful thing to ask money from them anymore. They have gone through a lot and i just hope to make them glad and give them a good life.
looking forward to this holiday. hope that i can get good results this time.
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